30 September 2002

Yeah baybeh yeah~~!!!!! Finish the 8th disc leow~~!!!! I'm soooooo crazy over Makoto San~~!!!!!! Damn kawaii ne~~ How i wish i can have her as mah gf...but there's a catch. I might not be able to bring myself to fuck her cos she's too cute leow. Wat the heck, i'll try to fuck her even though my mind say i cannot. Wahahaha....ok ok, enuff of these crap. I actually had a gf who somehow had that cute factor in her. Of cos, she's young. Anybody who's over 23 and have that cute factor, is act one. Of cos, not all of them act cute, cos some gals just refuse to grow up. In that case, the term i use is simply, NAIVE. Ok, so wat do we have today? I'm a sweetie today~~ I help Mrs Tan fold clothes, feed the fishes, finish up watever she brought home this morning and staying at home. Ok...i went out fer awhile to get some "fresh air", wats the big deal? I was back in less than an hour. Doesnt take tat long to finish 7 sticks wat.....Anyway, when will i ever visit the beach again? Damn shiok leh, fagging to the sea breeze and having the stars as ur umbrella. Should'v do it more often when i was riding. Now its kinda hard to go to the beach...1, dont have the vehicle to go there late in the nite. 2, no marnie to take midnite charge cab. 3, no gals to go there hanky panky with. 4, last but not least, i cant walk. First thing when i can walk again, hopefully is to visit pulau redang again. Most likely i wont be working yet, so still can relac for awhile. Who wanna go with me? Reservations welcome. Hey i'm serious! I wanna fag by the sea, hopefully have a guitar to play with. That is, if i can still play a guitar....

27 September 2002

Just finish watching the 4th disc of "The Beachboys". In this episode, its all abt this guy, who's working for this big financial company in Tokyo. Good job, good prospect, pretty gf....gave em all up just to spend his days working as a motel attendant earning meagre pay and having to spend time away from his pretty gf. His Immediate Superior came over to see how he's doing, and realise that his so call "dream" is actually an irrealistic load of crap. Then he told him, "You gonna get wat u wanna do now. But when u've failed, u gonna look back at times like these and start regretting. Regret for not doing the norms. Regret for not sticking ur feet onto the ground and do wat others do too". The guy ponder, call the gf, and ask the gf if he has done wrong. The gf said. "Do you want me to tell ya that wat u did was right? I dun see wat u did was right in any aspect. But since this is wat ya always wanna do, why not give it a try? If u failed, you can always start over again. Just do wat u deem fit right now". Ok, who do u think is right? The superior or the gf? The Immediate Superior is in his 50s and have seen it all. Wanted to be a sailor but choose to live a normal simple life without the thrills and spills of a sailor. The gf, typical japanese gal who's purpose of living is to serve her man well and let him fuck her all the way he want, obviously doesnt dare to go against her man's wish. But she have a pt too, cos she know once the japanese bastard made up their mind, nothing she say would change his mind. How i wish i can have this kinda gf too. I would definitely wanna hear tat kinda thing said to me. I hate my current lifestyle now...if i was given a chance to choose to live the kinda life i want, i would too. Who cares abt regretting in the future(like i've never regret something before). Who cares abt having to start all over again(like i have a choice to choose not to if i fail). I dunno abt u guys, for me i'll definitely choose the latter. Do first, tok later, whether i succeed or fail. I know its kinda irresponsible to not think of consequences. But if u gonna tie urself down with consequences, how will ya ever succeed in life? How will ya know without even trying? Then ya gonna regret fer not trying during ur dying breath? Come on, get real, have some entrepreneurship in ya. Dare to dream, dare to try, dont be like some guniang and scare this scare that. Or maybe u deserve to lead a simple life and just die with a truck fulla regrets. Anyway, each to his best....

25 September 2002

Erm...i decide to keep the outcome of the review a secret. Not as if alot are keen to know....just dun wanna hear those norms again. Pretty sick of it. Was amused with wat i saw in vee's blog. She's pretending to be toking to our beloved Mr Merlion. So shiok to have an digicam to play around with. Am really considering of getting that digicam which can be fixed on my hp. Then everywhere i go i can just snapshot and post it up somewhere. First lemme learn how to post pics up from my most wanting person, vee. Tat merlion pic was pretty cute. The last time i saw a merlion was when i went WTC with my ex gf. Sitting towards the direction of Sentosa, and u can see a creepy merlion blinking at ya. Spooky one cos the light the shines onto it turns from purple to yellow to green and then to purple again. Wonder when will i ever go there again...its there where i took my first puff...with a gal...hahaha...
Will someone get me a digicammmmmmmmmmmmm~~~~~~ My birthday is coming...*hint hint*. Ok...here's a question for you guys who's reading this. Who doesnt wanna get married (Married here meaning going to rom, getting a flat, customary etc etc.). Just a survey cos one of my friend's having second tots of getting married. She doesnt know whether she can handle the same guy for the rest of her life. Which i think is pretty true, let it be the gals or the guys. Human hate one another by nature(tat explain the never-ending wars in middle east). Even if ya can love someone for now, u cant guarantee u can love him/her fer life. No matter how loving u r, there bound to be one day u decide u have enuff of him/her and wanna just leave. But most married couples cant cos they are bonded together legally and morally. So there, no real love or real "i can take all kinds of crap from him/her cos i love him/her". Wats the reason for not leaving? Ask them...they'll know better....

24 September 2002

Ok, today is judgement day fer me. Its Review Day~~! Its time to tell the doc whether i want him to cut me open or not. Its time to decide how long more i wanna spend on this piece of junk. Its time to feel confused and lost again. Its time to hear all those "Are you feeling better? Oh i'm so sorry to learn abt this" crap once more. I wonder how long i'll have to spend in bed for this op...sounds kinda complicated to me. First they will cut open ur ass and remove part of ur hipbone, then they will cut open my thigh and patch it up with those hipbone tissue. Wonder how long this op is gonna take. So i suppose i wont be able to sit up or stand for a couple of weeks, even months. I'll most likely sleep this oncoming chinese new yr out. First one spend on a bed....no more mahjong, no more chor dai dee, no more bar gua, no more fun and luffters peace and joy, no more enjoyment, just sleep. Dohz. See how lor later....

21 September 2002

Ok...something serious to wonder abt. Maybe not that serious afterall, just something that's been on mah mind when i cant get to sleep at nite. So here izzit: Say ya sleep 8 hrs a day, thats 1/3 of a day. Say u live till 60, thats gonna be 20 yrs gone. 20 fucking years doing nothing....just lying down there hoping to have wet dream with Brad Pitt or Jennifer Love Hewitt. Maybe u might say i'm whinning...but imagine. If ya were to be able to not sleep fer 2 decades, wat are the things u can accomplished? Maybe not much, but its definitely more accomplishing than having some wet dreams. Statistic sux...was hoping that i didnt learn that when i was in sec sch. When u r doing things u dunno, u just tell urself 'its like that'. Or some smart ass will try to prove why we need to sleep. A gal, who's studying science in NUS, told me its because u need to let ya brain rest and regenerate new cells etc etc. Why we need to regenerate new cells in the first place if the old ones dont die? Why? Why we grow old? Thats how religion comes abt. When pple are not sure of something, they love to seek answer from the unknown, or the creator, or God. Then they themselve give ridiculous answers. Modern pple tries to prove their ridiculous answers. Why do human grow old? Cos the system slow down and metabolism slow down as u gets older. Why izzit so? Becos its so. No answers. Ahh.....think i am toking cock again....who ever invented human must be sucky.....such a lousy invention. Guess tat person who came up with the idea of X-Men know wat i'm driving at. How he wish that he could be a combination of all the X-Men super power! Super human that never grow old...thats wat Qing Shi Huang was searching for many many years ago....

19 September 2002

eh...funny post.....

[23:01] anyone> xiao pingguo
[23:02] anyone> ai see chio bu mai?
[23:05] `HeBe`> mai!
[23:05] `HeBe`> i can see myself
[23:05] anyone> byl
[23:08] `HeBe`> wat is byl...
[23:09] `HeBe`> ??
[23:10] anyone> bu yao lian
[23:23] AcuraBaby> jbl byl
[23:23] AcuraBaby> jbl byl
[23:25] `HeBe`> wat is jbl byl?
[23:26] AcuraBaby> johor bahru lian bu yao lian
[23:27] * AcuraBaby was kicked by `HeBe` (AcuraBaby)
Mooncake festival is coming~~ weeeeeeeeeee~~!! Time to burn some lanterns, eat some cake tat looks like the moon and without a single bit of cream, and of cos, make love~~! But i dun think the moon on this coming saturday is a blue moon, so shouldnt make any difference whether u get to fuck or not during that nite. I dont really enjoy those mooncakes that look dark brownish. I prefer those green ones, which they call it the Bing Pi (icy skin). No salted egg york in it please. Sweet and Saltish dont blend at all. I still prefer those mooncakes from china...the flaky skin kind...u know? I suppose most never tasted it before...its a totally different concept, except that the Lian Rong still taste the same. I use to spend mah mooncake festival at some hill top nearby my house, with a bunch of friends of cos. Play with candles, cards, blah blah blah. Then someone like someone and its the best chance to express ya feelings to that person on tat nite cos it seems kinda romantic with all those candles around us. Of cos, its done away from the crowd, under the pale moonlight, under some trees, and some watchful busybody eyes. I think i did tat once too, when i was in sec 4. Hahaha...i think i succeed but somehow back out cos i am confused with wat i really want. Even till this date i'm still confused abt wat i want. Tats why all these years i'm so busy falling in and out of love. Heh....but all this i love u, u love me are bullshits lar....marriages are bullshit too...but this fuck up society need all kinds of fuck up cert to function properly. Imagine this: You and your *ahem* decides not to get married. Kewl enuff. First, applying a new house would be a problem. Then like in a few yrs time, u guys get kids, hosp would need ur ROM cert to prove that the kid is urs. You got none. So there u go, u became the Guardian of that kid. Soon enuff the kid will go to school, then everyone's gonna ask him/her how come the parents column in the report book is "nil". Then ur kid's gonna come back and ask u why? Then they will be too young to understand why u guys are trying to be different etc etc. He/She will grow up as an abnormal, a freak, a someone who's dad and mom didnt go thru the norms and did not have a cert to prove that they r an item. Lets hope the kid wont turn into some freaky Magneto or Dr Evil next time.....

16 September 2002

Was thinking of getting a digi cam for a long time...now with this phone that i've got last week, which is the sony ericsson t68i, the temptation of getting a digi cam is stronger. First of all, i can customise the whole phone with those pic i took with a digi cam....can even have individual pictures showing who is the person calling me etc etc. Kinda fun it seems...but without a cam its just a normal phone with coloured screen. Gonna get mah hands on one digi cam soon...or maybe i can just borrow my bro's..but i scare i might damage it unknowingly...oh well....guess i'll have to wait again...see who's kind enuff to give away theirs...heh...or maybe my brother would buy me one...a cheap one of cos....

15 September 2002

Everybody are getting bodyart nowadays, have u got urs too? Two of my friend have got theirs already plus one more planning to get. They are all gals....all tattooed on their lower back and some other part. Kinda envy them cos i always wanted to get one long long time ago but din have to courage to do it cos i scare my mom might disown me for doing that. Getting a gecko on the neck is something i want all along...but its just not practical to get one on ur neck in singapore cos its seen as noctorious, unorthodox, blah blah. Dont think can get a decent desk job if ya have a gecko on ya neck. Singaporeans are soooooo fucking screwed in their fucking brains. Wat has tattoo gotta do with ur freaking personality and character? It just dont make sense. Its just like saying, "Hey, those pple with ang kong are definitely gonna commit some crimes!". Does it mean that a man is definitely gonna be a rapist? Or a mat is definitely gonna be someone's chaffeur(though most of them are but not all.)? This are the ridiculous tots tat some human beings have in their mind. They tend to link everything together. Oh well, living in a harsh world, u gotta be harsh urself or u're gonna get beaten up by all those nonsense around ya. Join em if ya cant beat em, be a part of the norms, be a part of this sickening society, be a part of everything, be a part of...of.... well, urself.....

07 September 2002

Saturday! Have ya enjoy ya Saturday? After working so hard for rest of the week, tis the day to enjoy and let go of all ur worries~~! Sian all the babes for the guys; make all the guys drool over u by wearing something next to nothing for the gal; get all the shit u can get on ur dicks for the faggots and dig all the cb u can find for all the lesbos! ITS WEEKEND GOD DAMNIT~~!!! GO ON~~!! ENJOY IT!!! Oh well....to me its just a crowded day at home in the morning and quiet in the afternoon. My siblings all dont have to work on saturday so its fooking crowded in the morning....then my bro and sis will be out in the afternoon and the only one left at home are my folks, my eldest bro and me. Then they will just sleep sleep and sleep. Then i'm all alone in the living room by mahself like now. Fooking bored...it rained this morning and now seems like its gonna rain again. Rain rain rain....makes ya mellow....i think my bro is hiding in the room watching porno...whahahahaa....dun dare to go in scare later he malu. Tot of playing my Gran Turismo 3 becos i'm listening to this Initial D soundtrack...all those para para dance kinda songs. Though it sound kinda stupid but listening to it reminds me of that cartoon and the cars. Though i'm not into car that much, but that cartoon is really kewl. Watch it if u have the chance. Nice work on the cars i must say...smooth graphical enhanced cars....really nice. Wonder why am i itching so much...just bathed....must be the new shower cream i used. Shokobutsu or something like that...greentea smell...sis bought it to give it a try. Maybe i go apply some johnson powder on mahself now...later folks..
back baybeh back~~!! hahaa....just notice this nick change scandal again...i dunno how true is this lar...but this shit keep happening....and i'm amazed with the rate this shit is happening man....u might wonder wat nick change scandal mean....lemme show ya an example:

[16:24] *** 5hAnNoN^ is now known as |\|/|urdoc
[16:24] *** anyon3 is now known as k3ll3n`
[16:30] *** cra$$` is now known as cAoDaB1Rd

Erm...this mean that certain person went over to another person's place and uses his/her computer. Usually one party is a guy and the other is a gal, but there are exceptions. You can think wat u deem fit and i can think wat i deem fit too. Of cos...i try to hide the identities of the above mentioned to protect their interest. That nick is not their usual nick so as u pple wont be able to guess who are them. Its up to ur own mindset to guess who they are. Any wrong assumptions made have nothing to do with me. Hahahhahaha....

02 September 2002

i should keep a post fer things happening in irc...here's an example...
[21:58] anyone> yo bro
[22:00] ^SinNeR^> yo bro~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
[22:00] ^SinNeR^> yo bro~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[22:04] anyone> ho seh boh bro?
[22:04] ^SinNeR^> ok good good
[22:04] ^SinNeR^> tomolo going over sea again...
[22:04] anyone> go where?
[22:05] ^SinNeR^> indon
[22:06] AcuraBaby> go indon eat seafood ah?
[22:06] anyone> go visit megawati ar?
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> ya man
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> work lah
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> eat seafood
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> yes of cos must eat
[22:09] anyone> visit megawati aR?
[22:09] anyone> say hi to her for me

[22:28] anyone> tonite i watching soccer
[22:28] V|cK> oni one match wad watch simi lan
[22:29] AcuraBaby> oni one match wad watch simi lan <--- u 1 time can watch how many games?
[22:29] anyone> she one eye watch one match so total she can watch 3 match
[22:30] AcuraBaby> she watches matches naked sia
[22:30] AcuraBaby> 3 eyes

just some funny shit i wanna share with u guys...hurhur....and ya...my friend N just found out that 2.4 gigs out of his 3 gigs hdd has been deleted unknowingly. This is the first time i ever hear him screaming cheebye all the way baybeh!!! Relac lar dude!! Since u got nothing impt inside ur hdd other than ya fifa. Game can always reinstall and soon u'll find urself wacking ManUre's arse again man!!! hahaha.....peace!!
Its raining yet again. All alone in the living room, cool wind in my hair. One smell of wu long cha, rising up in the air. I just finish mah cup of tea, wishing i've got a fag in mah hand. Listening to Eagle's Hotel California and thinking back the time when i jam with my friends down at some void deck in bedok. Kewl days....kewl music...kewl songs..kewl guitar and kewl roti john. Other than having worry abt test and such during those time, nothing much worries me. Spend alot of time playing music in one of the studios in bedok reservoir road. Called ourselves "a bunch of failures" cos we all flunk one or two subjects. Jamming and drinking coffee at coffeeshops were wat i do most during those days. Now all i'm doing is sitting around and facing the god damn computer. Shiok some might say. Lemme tell u this punk, it aint shiok at all. Not a single bit. Its fooking BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, i'm back into those whinning days once again. Just nothing is happening right now other than occassion "excursion" i go, and its kopi, kopi and more kopi. The pple i see in irc is getting more and more uninteresting. Most of them dunno wat the hell are they doing, and got nothing else better to do like me. Tried playing Gran Turismo 3 these days, and its really taxing. As the levels go up, the more laps u have to race with the computer. I was playing this tournament where u have to race 10 laps in 1 race and there's 10 races to go. And u r racing with cars like viper, nsx and such. Fooking taxing....i race fer 2 races and i give up. I think i'll play that game again once i catch my breath. Getting pretty sick with my 600 over mp3. Day in day out i'm listening to the same old track, toking to the same old few person. Pick up something some might say, but wat? Ok, i'm just being lazy, fair enuff. I'm just sick of everything now. I think i'll just continue rotting my time away.....