Was thinking of getting a digi cam for a long time...now with this phone that i've got last week, which is the sony ericsson t68i, the temptation of getting a digi cam is stronger. First of all, i can customise the whole phone with those pic i took with a digi cam....can even have individual pictures showing who is the person calling me etc etc. Kinda fun it seems...but without a cam its just a normal phone with coloured screen. Gonna get mah hands on one digi cam soon...or maybe i can just borrow my bro's..but i scare i might damage it unknowingly...oh well....guess i'll have to wait again...see who's kind enuff to give away theirs...heh...or maybe my brother would buy me one...a cheap one of cos....

Everybody are getting bodyart nowadays, have u got urs too? Two of my friend have got theirs already plus one more planning to get. They are all gals....all tattooed on their lower back and some other part. Kinda envy them cos i always wanted to get one long long time ago but din have to courage to do it cos i scare my mom might disown me for doing that. Getting a gecko on the neck is something i want all along...but its just not practical to get one on ur neck in singapore cos its seen as noctorious, unorthodox, blah blah. Dont think can get a decent desk job if ya have a gecko on ya neck. Singaporeans are soooooo fucking screwed in their fucking brains. Wat has tattoo gotta do with ur freaking personality and character? It just dont make sense. Its just like saying, "Hey, those pple with ang kong are definitely gonna commit some crimes!". Does it mean that a man is definitely gonna be a rapist? Or a mat is definitely gonna be someone's chaffeur(though most of them are but not all.)? This are the ridiculous tots tat some human beings have in their mind. They tend to link everything together. Oh well, living in a harsh world, u gotta be harsh urself or u're gonna get beaten up by all those nonsense around ya. Join em if ya cant beat em, be a part of the norms, be a part of this sickening society, be a part of everything, be a part of...of.... well, urself.....

Saturday! Have ya enjoy ya Saturday? After working so hard for rest of the week, tis the day to enjoy and let go of all ur worries~~! Sian all the babes for the guys; make all the guys drool over u by wearing something next to nothing for the gal; get all the shit u can get on ur dicks for the faggots and dig all the cb u can find for all the lesbos! ITS WEEKEND GOD DAMNIT~~!!! GO ON~~!! ENJOY IT!!! Oh well....to me its just a crowded day at home in the morning and quiet in the afternoon. My siblings all dont have to work on saturday so its fooking crowded in the morning....then my bro and sis will be out in the afternoon and the only one left at home are my folks, my eldest bro and me. Then they will just sleep sleep and sleep. Then i'm all alone in the living room by mahself like now. Fooking bored...it rained this morning and now seems like its gonna rain again. Rain rain rain....makes ya mellow....i think my bro is hiding in the room watching porno...whahahahaa....dun dare to go in scare later he malu. Tot of playing my Gran Turismo 3 becos i'm listening to this Initial D soundtrack...all those para para dance kinda songs. Though it sound kinda stupid but listening to it reminds me of that cartoon and the cars. Though i'm not into car that much, but that cartoon is really kewl. Watch it if u have the chance. Nice work on the cars i must say...smooth graphical enhanced cars....really nice. Wonder why am i itching so much...just bathed....must be the new shower cream i used. Shokobutsu or something like that...greentea smell...sis bought it to give it a try. Maybe i go apply some johnson powder on mahself now...later folks..
back baybeh back~~!! hahaa....just notice this nick change scandal again...i dunno how true is this lar...but this shit keep happening....and i'm amazed with the rate this shit is happening man....u might wonder wat nick change scandal mean....lemme show ya an example:

[16:24] *** 5hAnNoN^ is now known as |\|/|urdoc
[16:24] *** anyon3 is now known as k3ll3n`
[16:30] *** cra$$` is now known as cAoDaB1Rd

Erm...this mean that certain person went over to another person's place and uses his/her computer. Usually one party is a guy and the other is a gal, but there are exceptions. You can think wat u deem fit and i can think wat i deem fit too. Of cos...i try to hide the identities of the above mentioned to protect their interest. That nick is not their usual nick so as u pple wont be able to guess who are them. Its up to ur own mindset to guess who they are. Any wrong assumptions made have nothing to do with me. Hahahhahaha....

i should keep a post fer things happening in irc...here's an example...
[21:58] anyone> yo bro
[22:00] ^SinNeR^> yo bro~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
[22:00] ^SinNeR^> yo bro~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[22:04] anyone> ho seh boh bro?
[22:04] ^SinNeR^> ok good good
[22:04] ^SinNeR^> tomolo going over sea again...
[22:04] anyone> go where?
[22:05] ^SinNeR^> indon
[22:06] AcuraBaby> go indon eat seafood ah?
[22:06] anyone> go visit megawati ar?
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> ya man
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> work lah
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> eat seafood
[22:08] ^SinNeR^> yes of cos must eat
[22:09] anyone> visit megawati aR?
[22:09] anyone> say hi to her for me

[22:28] anyone> tonite i watching soccer
[22:28] V|cK> oni one match wad watch simi lan
[22:29] AcuraBaby> oni one match wad watch simi lan <--- u 1 time can watch how many games?
[22:29] anyone> she one eye watch one match so total she can watch 3 match
[22:30] AcuraBaby> she watches matches naked sia
[22:30] AcuraBaby> 3 eyes

just some funny shit i wanna share with u guys...hurhur....and ya...my friend N just found out that 2.4 gigs out of his 3 gigs hdd has been deleted unknowingly. This is the first time i ever hear him screaming cheebye all the way baybeh!!! Relac lar dude!! Since u got nothing impt inside ur hdd other than ya fifa. Game can always reinstall and soon u'll find urself wacking ManUre's arse again man!!! hahaha.....peace!!

Its raining yet again. All alone in the living room, cool wind in my hair. One smell of wu long cha, rising up in the air. I just finish mah cup of tea, wishing i've got a fag in mah hand. Listening to Eagle's Hotel California and thinking back the time when i jam with my friends down at some void deck in bedok. Kewl days....kewl music...kewl songs..kewl guitar and kewl roti john. Other than having worry abt test and such during those time, nothing much worries me. Spend alot of time playing music in one of the studios in bedok reservoir road. Called ourselves "a bunch of failures" cos we all flunk one or two subjects. Jamming and drinking coffee at coffeeshops were wat i do most during those days. Now all i'm doing is sitting around and facing the god damn computer. Shiok some might say. Lemme tell u this punk, it aint shiok at all. Not a single bit. Its fooking BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, i'm back into those whinning days once again. Just nothing is happening right now other than occassion "excursion" i go, and its kopi, kopi and more kopi. The pple i see in irc is getting more and more uninteresting. Most of them dunno wat the hell are they doing, and got nothing else better to do like me. Tried playing Gran Turismo 3 these days, and its really taxing. As the levels go up, the more laps u have to race with the computer. I was playing this tournament where u have to race 10 laps in 1 race and there's 10 races to go. And u r racing with cars like viper, nsx and such. Fooking taxing....i race fer 2 races and i give up. I think i'll play that game again once i catch my breath. Getting pretty sick with my 600 over mp3. Day in day out i'm listening to the same old track, toking to the same old few person. Pick up something some might say, but wat? Ok, i'm just being lazy, fair enuff. I'm just sick of everything now. I think i'll just continue rotting my time away.....

My mom's watching the wat connection...that tcs8 9pm show...seems so fake the way things happen. Everything was screwed up initially, and before ya know, everything is so wonderful again. Is this wats happening around us? Doubt so. Anyway soap operas are all made the same way as this one, thats why my mom love it so much. She would scold and scold when everything goes wrong and smile and smile when everything is working out fine. Sometimes she would get so agitated by the show till i got scoldings fer saying i side the bad guy. Hahaha.... Anyway this is one bad bad yr fer me and my family. Everything is just not going rite. Got ticked off by my brother for not being responsible for the things i do. I know i disappoint pple. I know i didnt deliver wat i promise. I know i'm shreking responsiblities. Sometimes i just wish i'm an orphan. I got no one to depend on and no one to disappoint. I've only got me and me alone. If i dont depend on anyone but myself, i dont think i'll disappoint anybody other than myself. But its easier said than done. Just dont like to disappoint pple. Try not to but i cant stop myself from doing the stupid things i do. Oh well, i think i've really take my family fer granted. Didnt realise that until all the shit happened recently. Its like....its always friend this friend that. Why are my friend's problems becoming my family problems? OH BECOS I AM FUCKED THATS WHY! Yeah...this accident taught me who will be by my side when something dreadful happens to me. Not your best friend, not your galfriend, but those who u call family. You might not realise it now, but i bet u'll realise it someday....So if ya can, show more concern to ya family. They r the ones who wont turn their back against ya...well, most of them. Hope none of u belongs to the minority.....

Its been a while i blog in the morning. Kewl weather now....raining dinosaur cats and dinosaur dogs. Suppose to be a nice weather to continue sleeping but my build-in alarm clock rings the moment my mom steps out of the house. Yeah baybeh~~ Its time to fag! I'd better enjoy moments like these before i find myself lying motionlessly on some freaky hosp bed with some miserable blanket. Sheesh...it sux to find urself bound to ur bed only. Actually i dont like friends to come visit me in the hosp. Its demoralising when u cant walk along side with them and all they could say to u is to rest more. Obviously i cant do anything else but to "rest more" becos the only place i can go is well, the bed, the place where u get ur rest from. Dohz. Just cant stand these norms anymore. Though i appreciate pple coming down to pay me a visit, i do. But please spare me from these norms. Tok abt something else lar. Tok abt wat we use to tok in coffeeshops, pool centres, makan session, etc etc. Ahh...this is fooking depressing man....


Had a great day on sat becos i had both my breakfast and dinner outside. Had kway zup feast in the morning and mee goreng cum flied lice feast at fisherman village in the nite. Great! Its one of those "oh i'm so fully booked today" thingie. It just pass like that, before ya know. Its days like these that i wont have problem falling asleep in the nite. Wonder when will i do this again...near future perhaps? Beats me....Friend coming down all the way from Klang(a town in msia) to Sg just to bring me out. Touched. Actually its not how far or how busy are u yet u find time to bring me out that make me feel touched. Its the thought that count, seriously. Pple who stay near me come visit me, i appreciate it. Pple who stay darn far from me come visit me, i appreciate it too. I dunno the reason for them to come find me. Maybe they like toking to me? Maybe i can make pple luff? Maybe this maybe that...i dunno. But its the tots that counts. Friend whom i use to see so seldom in the past, is coming down to mah place and pushing me here and there almost everyweek. Friend whom i use to see everyweek in the past, is becoming a total stranger to me. I dunno izzit me or him. He seems to be some kinda gf of mine, who will distance away from ya once u stop going out with him and do crazy things together. Well, maybe not crazy things. Just stop spending time going out together cos its such a hassle to bring me out. Maybe its his laziness. I wont know and i think i dont wanna know. Anyway its his life to choose wat he want and dont wanna do. But this kinda gimme a new defination to friends. Pple whom u see almost everyday is not neccessarily ur best friends. Pple who find u occassionally doesnt mean they dont give a damn abt u. But sad thing is, u wont be able to tell this until something dreadful happens to u. Sometime life's just isnt fair. Or should i say life was never fair at all. So who do you think is ur good friend? Think again....

Actually i'm still considering to do the op or not. Its like another 2 more mths on the bed and theres no guarantee success or wat. Some ask me to wait and see wat happen, while others ask me to go ahead with the op. Myself? Actually, i just have to endure the boredom at home since i'm still getting paid (compensation for loss of income). Isnt this the dream of some pple? Of cos, u have to give certain things up for this kinda benefit, which in my case is the ability to walk. I think i'm getting lazy. I dont mind sitting at home all day and irc my life away....whahaahhahha....ya ya...i know...thats kinda fooked up life. Anyway i think i wont be able to recover for chinese new yr, with or without doing the op. Sux man....having to stay home all day during chinese new yr. But wat to do? Loon lor...boh bianz. Friday i'm going hospital for the neuro test or something like that. I kept feeling this numbness on my right hand fingers and the doc suspect there might be some nerves being damaged. So i'm requested to do a neuro test on mah right hand.....and the shoulder keep aching....fook man....just one crash and my whole body's falling apart. I wonder how those moto GP racer survive to race again after so many crashes. Just mah luck....i still enjoy watching other pple ride though. Can still feel the kinda satisfaction i had in the past. The feeling is soooo shiok, so carefree....ahh....I dunno its a good thing to not rem a thang abt the accident or not. Of cos, forgetting trauma experience is good. But if ya dont feel scared at all, the tendency of u trying to do it again next time is extremely high. I think i might still ride again....but not in near future. I'll try my best not to though, but it seems tat i always succumb to temptations...whahahaha.....somebody stop me~! hurhur....

Just as wat i expected. No bone growth yet again. Tis the freaking 5th time i've seen that doc of mine and tis the fooking 5th time he's telling me that there is no developement for my thigh bone. Guess i'll have to go for another op, which they will cut me up once again. Gonna remove part of my hip bone to patch my thigh bone up. Wonder why they didnt do this during the first op. Maybe they were hoping that my repair workshop inside will do a fooking good job in repairing mah thigh. But those bunch of fookers inside are lazy bumps. Been almost 6 months and still they've got no clue on how to patch the fooking bone up. Well, i guess its "oh-its-so-fooking-boring" all over again. Lie on the bed 24/7, do the stupid physiotherapy, having trainee nurses from NYP to clean mah wounds up, saying crap to friends which i got no idea wat the fook i said, etc etc. Anyway, dont think will do the op that soon. The doc gimme 1 mth time to consider his suggestion. Will give him the answer on 24th of Sept when i pay him yet another fooked up visit. So dont be surprise if u dont see my blog being update fer a mth or so. Most likely i'll be on the bed admiring how pretty the ceiling is being painted and how "pretty" those indonesian nurses are...

Its been quite awhile since i blog....erm...2 days? Hmm...not that long after all....Yesterday i had my first movie in like 7 mths, and again i was like the center of attention. First, the elevator is not working and i had to take the escalator on my wheelchair. The angle was so steep that i need to use my left leg to tahan abit so i wont roll down the escalator like some Jacky Chan movie stunts. Then going into the cinema need to use that mini elevator again. Kaoz...then we can only take the first row cos its steps, steps and more steps!! After the show, its the same old shit all over again....whaahahaha....my friend had to tahan me from behind when we r taking the escalator down...haiz....if the elevator is out of service for so long, they can just jollywell remove it and name it "Yishun Handicap Unfriendly Ten". Anyway thats my latest expedition and i think i'll do it again to catch "Lilo and Stitch"....hahaha...i like cartoons, but not those wat beauty and the beast or any of those with alot of the male courting female, they sing, male was forced by father to marry another gal, they sing, male runaway from home and found himself stop by the female's parents, they sing. finally, male and female got together, they fucking sing again!!! Its singing and singing and singing!!!! Its BOLLYWOOD cartoon style..minus the running around coconut trees and fighting with dumb dark aholes. I think i need to plan for this show man....to find those cinema which i can go in easily on a wheelchair, dont have to sit in the front row ONLY and empty with busybodies who will look at me like i'm Stitch..wahahhaa....plan baybee plannnnnn~~~