I kinda expect how things gonna turn out to be but i still get disappointed with it when it really turn out the way i expected. Hmm...dont get me? Like u kinda casually ask someone to help u get something, normally u will expect them to totally forget abt it after a couple of days. But days later u ask them again and they really forgotten about it. Then u feel so disappointed with them even though u expect them to forget. You are actually contradicting with urself in this situation. Though u already expect them to forget, deep inside u r still hoping that they would remember. Though u keep telling urself, "aiyah, expected leow lar..." U are only trying to console urself. Why wanna console urself when u oledi expect tat to happen? Contradicting urself la...u silly ass. Ya ya...no bad feelings about it. Its just a normal thing if u'd observe ur everyday life closer. No worries, without it, life wouldnt be life anymore. Its so common tat we seems to neglect it...

I finally got mah Super Licence in Gran Turismo 3. Spend almost a week going round and round that cote de Aruz circuit over and over again with tat sensitive piece of shit Toyota GT-One TS020

Can die man i tell u....but the sense of accomplishment is enormous cos i've won it in Automatic Mode. And all the freaking cheatcode site said tat stage can only be done if u're driving in Manual mode. Ya rite, Manual my ass....maybe it is easier to pass if u know how to drive in manual la....but fug, automatic oso can la, dont come and bullshit me with those cannot cannot cannot shit. Try la fug...try...try till u die u still try.....

This is a song call plush......(guitar strumming)......And I feel....that time's a wasted go.......so where u going to tomorrow? And i see that these are lies to come....would you even care? And i feel it......and i feel it.....where u going to tomorrow....where u going with the mask i found....

Hmm i thought i might wanna show yall something done by mah friend....i find it quite hilarious though i look like some twerp or dweeb....I'm a beefcake!!! Haha...kewl...i hope those gals are real though....

Hmm....come to think of it....Tat me look kinda like Mr Mackey(otherwise known as Mr Mmmkay) of Southpark

Look at mah head! its outta proportion~!!!....or am i turning into something i hate!?!?!??!?

I feel funny when i tune into mah blog nowadays. Seeing so many pictures lying around, its just so not "Freakshow". Ok, i'm glad i finally got the chance to upload pix and link it over. But i guess i was overwhelmed with excitement that i post every god damn pic i wanted to post all along into one post. Then now i feel so lost. How can that be right? I've finally achieved something that i've always wanted to, i should feel relieved, contended perhaps. But no lor, i've got this weird feeling in me. Seems like now i've got nothing to long fer in this blog. Mission Accomplished, i no longer need u kinda feeling. Maybe its time to get a digital cam with that marnie i'm gonna get fer selling mah Epiphone Les Paul Custom.





I manage to rip it off Ah Yap's site hehe....Anyway i just dont feel like buying another guitar anymore. I've totally lost interest getting another guitar after wat my ex did to my beloved Takamine Jasmine. Yes, i would like to think she lend it to some mat yoyo who dont seems to take care of their things. "Hey dek, sini! Hop!" Ah dek miss and guitar ga lao tor kar, part of the head chip off. "Hey bang, kepala bitjiak!" Ah bang say,"tak problem la...guitar tak aku's. guitar is aku's friend's friend's. Aku heard is a Gemok." Ah dek reply, "Alrite brudder! Power la brudder! Gemok bodoh! Come on brudder!! Lets sing Cinta Abadi! Rock will never die brudder!! Alamak...guitar jiatoh again...but nevermind, not bang's, its gemok's". Kewl...this scenario have been going on in mah head whole nite after i heard she lend mah guitar to someone and FAIL to get it back. Kewl isnt it? You take thing pple lend u and lend to others. I rest mah case. Thanks to her low integrity she have become the most hated person in mah life. I despise u now and i dont intend to have back my Takamine. Even if she's gonna gimme back now i'ma smashed it up like how those rockers smashed up their guitar on stage. It's of no value now cos it in someone's hand that i dont even know. The feeling fer tat guitar sux now. My Takamine died the moment i lend it to her. I rather she smashed it, burn it like some firewood or simply discard it. She lend other pple's thing to someone that person dont even know and she dare to tell my friend she FAIL to get it back. More like she dont intend to get it back. How can u fail to get pple's thing back? Its ur responsibility isnt it? Fucking hell....nevermind...i hate you. If i ever get to see i'd give u a tight slap and tell u the facts of life. No, i'm not even gonna touch u or see u or hear abt u. I wish i never know u.You are right, its a mistake to start something between us. No...i wanna rephrase that. ITS A MISTAKE TO JUST EVEN KNOW U, SCUMBAG~!!!!!!!

Hey wats this? Yeah....mah 2003 Vday gift courtesy of Yestie...kekeke....

Yr 1975 when i was just 1 yr old. Haha...ok ok...tats not me, just kidding...hehe


Taken in the yr 1995 i think. My good buddy cum lead guitarist ah yap's 21st bday heh...I'm the one holding his leg la....


Dark Infant yr 1995. Merson, Ronald and Akada! hahahaha....


Merson and me yr 1995. Taken in ah yap's place. See that guitar? Thats the mighty Fender, i think? I'm an Ozzy Osbourne wannabe then...


Taken way back in 1996 i think. My Rong er was right next to me hehehe....


Huijun and me. The former got married on last Thursday, 20/03/2003 at Conrad. Nice number! 20032003~! Wishing you happily making out ever after hurhur....


My poly friends. Taken in some pub in Boat Quay. Open ur eyes la Ah Chua~!! Yeah..and jiaos look exactly like a pervert.


Taken in Tajie year 1999 i think. The 5 amigoes. Namely Benjamin(sinner), Francis(francis23), Ganesh(Bigguy), Kenneth(chow curly), me(caodabird).


Me and LeeWee. Our first appearing to be together but not taken together pic.


Forum Coffeebean 1999. My ex Yvonne and jiaos my great buddy.


Michelle's bday. Taken in Cha Xuan yr 2000 i think. She's a mom of 2 now.


Me singing Zhuo You Wei Nan(Direct translation is Left Right Difficult) with Eddie at Cha Xuan.


Taken outside Happycup 2 yrs ago. The one beside me was the bday gal then, who's gonna be a mom this June. Congrats Candy~


Me and Joline. Coming back from a holiday from Pulau Redang just the yr before last year. Awesome place.


Me currently. Remember that sign? ya...i'm a lovedust wannabe...Taken in one of marina south's steamboat buffet....

Juno introed me to this site run by this fellar call Maddox and i think he rocks. Firstly, he is wat i will call, a really cant-be-bothered-with-wat-u-have-to-say person. Thumbs up~! Secondly, his words are so acute and straight to the point that its either u love him or hate him, theres no neutral grounds. Thumbs up again~! I'ma turn mah blog into something like his, and u can call me watever u want. Things u hate and dislike, u dont have pretend tat u like em. Speak ya mind man speak ya mind. A Bohemian Society rite Mr Goh? A Bohemian Society will need lotsa criticism and lotsa sarcasm so as to stimulate creativity. Tell them wat u hate and tell them wats wrong with them. Remember, this is just wake pple up from their dreams and to rethink their so call perfect strategies and ideas becos they r dumbshit ideas afterall. But wat i said is strictly my opinion la, u can agree u can disagree but please dont try to argue with me la i confirm win one la. Why? Becos i dont have to prove to u anything wat, so i win la....hahahaha....ok la....mai say so much leow la...i wait fer mah pics to be ready then i start mah first edition leow la....zhao la...mai ji siao siao la....hurhur.....

Oh have i said this before? I hate nite time. The house is so packed! 3 television doing 3 different thing. Tele1 watching channel 55, Tele2 watching channel 19, Tele3 playing Gran Turismo 3. And both rooms are occupied with pple. I've got no where to go other than the kitchen, which is empty unless someone havent taken their dinner. I cant stand crowds...even if they r mah own family. I've always wanted to be alone...alone damn it alone....but seems like there's not much chance of me being alone at home. Ok, i'll try to go out by mahself one of these days...roll to the coffeeshop oso good...sit at the little corner all by mahself, fagging away of cos hahahha~ I think this might work, just have to cross the road with real cautious. I'm going crazy stuck at home again...and i really mean going nuts, bonkers, cuckoo etc etc. I faces the computer fer almost a year all day long, not having any social life, not having the chance to date leewee, not having the chance to go to the mall to see pretty gals, not having the chance to go to the movies, not having the chance to have 5-6 person coffee outing like he use to have, not having the chance to thrash someone over pool, not having the chance to just wander about in town, not having the chance to fag freely outside, etc etc. Oh ok...i just tot of these things when mah brother asked me,"So wat u wanna do most now?". These are the things i wanna do lor....now the occassionally friends bring me out can no longer satisfy me. I want more more more...i want back mah life...fucking shit...this cannot go out freely is killing me....tomorrow i shall try to go out rolling about by mahself....roll and roll to coffeeshops and lim kopi all by mahself~! i've had enuff of staying indoor...and i'ma fag and fag till i got burnt out hahahahahaha...fuck....i'm going insane...somebody please help...

YOU KNOW WATS THE PROBLEM WITH YOU ZINGAPOREANS? YOU ARE SO FUCKING USE TO BEING SPOONFEED THAT U DONT KNOW ONE SINGLE FUCK THING. JUST LIKE THAT TERRY IN "I NOT STUPID". EVERY FUCK THING HE OSO EXPECT PPLE TO HELP HIM DO. WATS YOUR PROBLEM MAN? CANT U FIND OUT HOW TO DO THE THINGS YOURSELF YOU FUCKING LAME PIECE OF SHIT? WAT DIFFERENCES DO U MAKE FROM THE FISHES IN MAH FISH TANK? NOT A GOD DAMN THING~!!! BUT THEY R SLIGHTLY BETTER THAN U COS I KNOW THEY WOULD RATHER FEED THEMSELVES THAN ME FEEDING THEM~!! HOW I KNOW? BECOS THEY TOLD ME YOU FREAKING LAME ASSES!!!!! Ok la...this is not meant for u guys la...its jfor those pple in irc who love to ask fer results and i was wondering how come they cannot go and find out the results themselves. The fucking internet have so many information in it and all they know is to chat and surf pornography...fucking idiots....ZINGAPORE!!!! IF THESE PPLE ARE YOUR FUTURE, YOU ARE GONNA END UP IN THE RUINS IN 30 YEARS TIME MAN!!!! STOP SPOONFEEDING YOUR FUCKING CITIZENS GOD DAMNIT!!!!! AND STOP INCREASING THE PRICE OF EM CIGGIES!!!!!! I CAN HARDLY AFFORD A PACK NOWADAYS!!!!!!!

I'm quite amazed with the speed that pple got dumped, hitched and married. Once awhile i'll recieve news like who and who broke up, who and who got together and who and who got married. The divorced rate remains at zero since most of them just got married, and i wish it stays at zero. I wonder if i'm fine now, with the ability to go for dates, will i experience these things so often too. Well, most likely i suppose. Since i'm like wat they say, a social butterfly. But its not i dont wanna hold on to the relationship. Once i feel that i've try to make things work and they dont, i'd just give up. Anyway, when u got the news of pple getting hitched and married, u'll somehow feel lonely and things like that. Maybe not for those who got plenty of things to do, but i certainly feel so since i've got nothing to do now. Life is pretty mundane and dull right now and i'm still pondering how to submit my income tax, been on my mind fer quite awhile. Gotta get it done by 15th of Apr. Most likely will ask my previous accountant to fill it up fer me, dont have the slightest idea wats the figure's like. Everything is in a mess. Was never good in housekeeping in the first place, things were not documented properly.


I turn my friend down this morning. Not ready to take up his proposal, yet. Its gonna be difficult fer me to get things done when moving abt in the house is such a dreaded thing to do now. Will try to keep things as wat it is, at least fer now. I'm very particular abt moving ard in this darn wheelchair. ITS SO INCONVENIENT. As long as its gonna make me feel troublesome doing things with this stupid rolls royce, i'm gonna say no. Dont wanna make others troublesome too...i hate to be dependant on others....hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it........

where have all the flowers gone...long time passing....where have all the flowers gone...long time ago...where have all the flowers gone....young gals pick them everyone...oh when will they ever learn...oh when will they ever learn...

Been offered this job by my sec sch friend, whom i know fer at least 16 years. Actually its not really a job. He's looking into expanding his bizness and offering new services to his new and existing customer. He needs someone to sort this out fer him and tie things down with them. To me, its like he's kinda helping me to make use of the time i have to earn some dough so that i can get leewee her phone or something like that. I realise i am not that dynamic anymore. I dont have that kinda drive i use to have. I'm too use to sitting around and do nothing except to get myself entertain with the various things i have. Maybe its becos i'm not really interested in selling his products and services, tats why i cant find the drive. If u were to ask me to sell guitars i would love to hahahha....Ok back to the topic. I'm glad tat pple are willing to help me here and there but i just dont like the idea of being dependant. The more pple try to help, the more i will avoid them. Everybody needs help now and then but all of a sudden i'm getting too much of it. I'm just not use to it. Call me Egoistic with a capital E. Anyway the fact of being not able to move around freely is the main obstacle i am facing. Seems to me i cant get many things done as long as i cant move around freely, even at home. I need time to sort this out mahself...i'm at a lost wat i'ma do now. I need a boost. I need a puff. I need to get things started. I need to chill...fuck, this weather is killing me....