Colin got for me a marvellous piece of axe from Albert who's in US. He sold me that brilliant piece of art for a mere $150~!! WAT THE HELL??!? SO CHEAP?!!? I DONT BELIEVE IT!! Yeah....its a Fender Fullbody Acoustic guitar so now I have 2 brilliant piece of artwork at home. Wanted to take pics of it to show you guys but I realised I dont have a cam. Now I'm starting to miss that Che-Ez Jo lend me...sobz sobz. Actually I can borrow my brother's S45 if I want to but I dont like to use people's things, even my own brother. I dont like to carry this responsibility on me...later chong pai very sian one. So boh bianz....wait till I really dying to show you guys then I'll find ways to get a cam and take the pics. Marvellous sound....marvellous......simply brilliant! Hurhur....

Whenever I look at the screen I'll get real tired and I wonder why. Maybe its becos I am using laptop and the screen is fucking small, and so are the words. So I'll have to always strain my eyes to try to figure out what the hell is infront of me. Pause every now and then to look at faraway objects might help?? Lagi wanna sleep lar dey~ But once logged off I became really restless and cant find anything to keep me occupied, not even the tv. Life is so fucking sianz at home~ Went to Karaokebox at Paradiz Centre on Friday and East Coast Park on Saturday....The fucking system change leow dey~ No more books for u to find the songs u want~ Its using a centralise dedicating system with only one fucking controller. So the others have to wait for u to finish before they can search for their songs. So when they finally managed to find their songs, you just nice finish singing yours. Then they start to sing theirs and your start looking for your songs again, so on and so for. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Meaning to say you dont have time to rest. But this case only applies to if you guys are all first timer. Course its really hard to find the songs you want if its your first time there. Pretty cock system i have to say. Its bad for the KJ cos you dont even need one in the first place. Another good thing is you don't have to que for songs if others are singing it and thats the only two advantage I saw in the system. Ok lar, once you're well versed with the controls it could be quite fun but I still have the feeling the songs I want to sing and cannot be found are inside, just that I dunno how the fuck to locate it. Nevermind about that.

East Coast Park was fun as usual cos I really know how to make myself happy everywhere I go. If at home pull a long face then come out oso pull a long face, then I might as well stay at home. Went to Irene's bday without any fucking present. Shame shame! It was pretty sian after the chor dai dee session around the stone table cos everyone just became so shy when they at Irene's bday. No one fucking intro themselves nor intro their friends. So fucking anti-social. Everyone just sat there and eat their own chicken wings and mind their own business. The host was half drunk and barely know where she was. Time came to a standstill when we were there. ITS FREAKING BORING LOR!! Then I try to talk some cock and liven the atmosphere abit but none responded. After tat we moved to somewhere else and same thing happens. I seems to be the only one enjoying myself. Everything seems to be revolving around me. The sitting arrangement too disperse? Maybe...anyway I think Zingaporeans like to hang up and sell. Its like you dont approach me I also dont approach you lor. Sianz....wonder how much this thing call "face" is worth. Must be worth millions to most. Anyway I'm feeling damn lonely now even with everyone around me. Been listening to Jay's Dong Feng Po since this afternoon and the weather is really mellow today. Rained, stopped, sky continues to stay dark, gushing wind, rain again, lightning + thunder + screams + me playing guitar + very much wanted to fag and watch the rain pour. Maybe I should go look out the window and find that lonely glittering star in the sky....perhaps we wont feel so lonely then....

Recently I crack alot of silly jokes...I love to see people laugh at the things I said, gives me the kinda of satisfaction I'm really fun to be with. Talked lotsa cock during the Jln Kayu prata session last night and I got Elaine choke on her kopicino by I cant remember what. Then today the whole shit continue again and I'm quite amused with the things I said too. Here's a short conversation I said and I think its real funny if you can picture the scenario in your head...hehehehe...

[19:11] anyone> now perfect storm boh mick kia to watch
[19:11] ViVieNne> yeah lor
[19:11] ViVieNne> how
[19:11] ViVieNne> so sianz
[19:11] anyone> later 745 then start watching
[19:12] ViVieNne> why wait until 745
[19:12] anyone> now boring now tok abt grandmother story
[19:12] ViVieNne> oh
[19:12] ViVieNne> wahahhhahahah
[19:12] ViVieNne> got like that
[19:12] ViVieNne> wahahhahaha
[19:12] anyone> ya
[19:12] ViVieNne> silllllly~~~~~~
[19:12] anyone> 745 start to watch
[19:13] anyone> when they go out to sea then exciting

blah blah something else for awhile......

[19:30] ViVieNne> the best is the supper
[19:30] ViVieNne> wahahahhahahahah
[19:30] anyone> like last nite supper i top form
[19:30] ViVieNne> [[[ ? laff until i choke ]]]
[19:30] ViVieNne> wahahhahahaha
[19:30] ViVieNne> [[[ ? cant stop laffing ]]]
[19:30] anyone> i so scare u boo the kopicino out
[19:30] anyone> at jln kayu
[19:30] ViVieNne> [[[ ? already boo liao ]]]
[19:30] goober> boo ?
[19:30] anyone> oh
[19:31] anyone> erm
[19:31] anyone> she drinking
[19:31] anyone> then i joke
[19:31] goober> oh
[19:31] goober> merlion huh
[19:31] ViVieNne> hurhurhur
[19:31] ViVieNne> yeah
[19:31] anyone> ya
[19:31] ViVieNne> wahahahhaha
[19:31] ViVieNne> so farnie
[19:31] anyone> something like that
[19:31] ViVieNne> [[[ ? cant stop laffing ]]]
[19:31] ViVieNne> lucky i never eat
[19:31] ViVieNne> if not the food also come out from the nose
[19:31] anyone> ya last nite she very happy she got kopicino drink
[19:31] anyone> so she luff non stop
[19:31] ViVieNne> wahahhahaha
[19:31] ViVieNne> �����?� [ L?UgH OuT L?Ud ] �?�����
[19:31] ViVieNne> [[[ ? think abt last night i have to laff ]]]
[19:31] ViVieNne> wahahhahahahaha
[19:32] ViVieNne> so funnnnny
[19:32] anyone> heheh
[19:32] anyone> top form dey~
[19:32] ViVieNne> yeah manz
[19:32] ViVieNne> that was the best time in the whole of ytd
[19:32] ViVieNne> wwahhahahahahah
[19:35] anyone> last time the whole platoon call me tok cock king
[19:35] ViVieNne> oh
[19:35] ViVieNne> okok
[19:35] anyone> but tats bmt
[19:35] ViVieNne> kewl~
[19:35] anyone> still no rank
[19:35] anyone> then promote 3sg cannot leow
[19:35] ViVieNne> cannot tok cok liao meh
[19:35] anyone> must go discipline pple
[19:36] anyone> ask pple march with umbrella
[19:36] anyone> must have pride leow
[19:36] ViVieNne> -=-=- L?UgH OuT L?Ud -=-=-
[19:36] ViVieNne> [[[ ? really wanna see leh ]]]
[19:36] ViVieNne> wanna see how ppl march with umbrellas
[19:36] anyone> same one la
[19:36] ViVieNne> [[[ ? think thats really farnie ]]]
[19:36] ViVieNne> hehehehehe
[19:36] anyone> like march with rifle
[19:36] anyone> just change to umbrella niah
[19:36] anyone> goober got heard of excuse sunlight or not?
[19:37] anyone> no la
[19:37] goober> no
[19:37] anyone> he march alone one
[19:37] ViVieNne> then suddenly in the middle got one umbrella sticking out
[19:37] goober> i got hear excuse grass
[19:37] anyone> my dept got one excuse sunlight
[19:37] ViVieNne> whahhahaha
[19:37] anyone> alone
[19:37] goober> heh
[19:37] anyone> he make the contingent look like fuck
[19:37] ViVieNne> yeah
[19:37] ViVieNne> so weird
[19:37] anyone> so he march alone behind
[19:37] anyone> then he lance coporal go where oso must march
[19:38] anyone> so he wanna go eat in cookhouse must march with umbrella
[19:38] anyone> then teabreak go canteen oso need
[19:38] anyone> so he seldom go canteen
[19:38] anyone> he ask pple help him da bao
[19:38] anyone> then i make him area cleaning before sun rise
[19:38] anyone> go sweep the drain at 6+
[19:39] ViVieNne> wahahhahahah
[19:42] ViVieNne> if tio sunlight then wat will he become?????????
[19:42] anyone> he say will have rashes la the skin shed la
[19:43] ViVieNne> oh
[19:43] ViVieNne> so serious
[19:43] anyone> luckily he never say he excuse air
[19:43] ViVieNne> so weird
[19:43] anyone> else make him wear jumpsuit
[19:43] ViVieNne> wahhahhahaha
[19:43] ViVieNne> -=-=- L?UgH OuT L?Ud -=-=-
[19:43] ViVieNne> �����?� [ L?UgH OuT L?Ud ] �?�����
[19:43] ViVieNne> �����?� [ L?UgH OuT L?Ud ] �?�����
[19:43] ViVieNne> �����?� [ L?UgH OuT L?Ud ] �?�����
[19:43] ViVieNne> -=-=- L?UgH OuT L?Ud -=-=-
[19:45] ViVieNne> the storm starting to brew liao
[19:45] ViVieNne> wahahahha
[19:45] anyone> ya
[19:45] anyone> see
[19:45] anyone> 745
[19:45] anyone> choon choon char bee hoon
[19:45] goober> hahha
[19:45] ViVieNne> wahahhaha
[19:45] ViVieNne> [[[ � sillllllllly~~~`` ]]]
[19:45] anyone> i watch 3 times leow
[19:46] ViVieNne> so nice meh
[19:46] anyone> ok la
[19:46] anyone> the storm very impressive though its keh one
[19:46] anyone> but like real
[19:46] anyone> so high the wave
[19:46] anyone> taller than petronas towers
[19:46] ViVieNne> wahahhahahaha
[19:46] ViVieNne> petronas tower......
[19:46] ViVieNne> wahahahahaha
[19:47] anyone> really!
[19:47] anyone> later u see
[19:47] anyone> george clooney saw the waves his jaws drop
[19:47] ViVieNne> wahahhaha
[19:47] anyone> if he know hokkien he sure say " mala wu ya?!? "
[19:48] anyone> eh this have to go into my blog
[19:48] anyone> this is funny
[19:48] ViVieNne> wahahahhaha
[19:48] ViVieNne> sil;lllllllly~~~~~``


Oh...its so fucking long man this dialogue....IRC could be fun at times hehe...

Havent been updating again. Been occupied with I dunno what. Havent been jamming for 2-3 weeks leow, really miss those time sitting by the reservoir and screaming at the top of mah lungs. Been going to alot of places other than yishun recently, great feeling. Not that I hate yishun but its fucking bored to always stay in one area. Tonight going to ktv at parklane, then tomorrow going to ecp to play chor dai dee. Then at night dunno going where. Exciting right? Right. Havent been to ecp fer a long time. The last time I went there was with cabbage. Sat infront of one rollerblade shop and play chinese chess while looking at the girls rollerblading hahahaha....such fine legs those girl have. Had Ultimate Mocha Spin from Coffeebean since its just beside the shop. Its one fucking good location to enjoy almost everything. Facing the sea, siping the coffee, puffing away my wan bao lu, see girls falling down in stunning fashion etc etc. THATS ONE HELLUVA LIFESTYLE DUDES!!!!! DAMN SHIOK!!!! Next time I got money I oso wanna open one shop facing the sea, selling chua bing and tian bu la that is! If business is bad I can eat those shit myself while looking at the sea, watching girls blade and fall in stunning fashion, puff some wan bao lu, play some chinese chess and dream some beachboyz dream. WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOO~!!! FUCKING SHIOK JUST THINKING OF IT MAN~!!!!! I WANNA BE BEACHFUCKINGBOYZ~!!!!!!

Ah Peng holding Pignose Amp and Pignose Guitar~ Cute boh? I saying I cute boh not the amp nor the guitar you dopes.




Which one cuter? This lighter or me?

Friday seems a little different these days. Less rant and whine cos I aint got time for it these days. Been to fisherman village again but its not with Colin this time. Dinner was heavy. 30 satays, 6 chicken wings, a plate of mee goreng and a plate of fried rice, black pepper deer meat, little kai lan in oyster sauce(cant really taste the oyster sauce), braised toufu, fried fritters stuffed with sotong meat, 2 jugs of heineken, 4 peach coolers, 1 coke and 1 mineral water for almost $200. Leftovers are enough for another 3 person I believe. Timothy, Kugan and Nate confessed they were pretty hungry when they reached there but couldnt eat much. I guess they got intimidated with the amount of food presented before them. After dinner was performance time yeah~ Fingers hurt like hell cos the strings were pretty hard. Try to play pool but had to give up after potting 2 balls. Played a number of songs and I feel like I'm camping or some sort like that. Reached home 0150 hrs feeling fresh. its 0412 hrs now and I'm still feeling fresh. Sleeping pills....to take, or not to take, that is the question....

Hey I know why everybody didnt eat much!! Its fucking weird to be just beside the sea and having still air!!! I want some fucking seabreeze like those in Beachboyz~

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My friend asked me something the other night that kept me pondering for a couple of days. She told me theres this guy who asked her to be his girlfriend after knowing her for a month or so. He gave her 2 weeks to think about it and give him a yes or no. She's amazed with the speed guys fall in love with girls and actually gave her a time frame to make up her mind. I personally feel that giving someone a time frame to decide on things concerning feelings is pretty lame. It sounds more like a threat to me than an offer. What people actually mean when they give you a period of time to consider whether to go into relationship is "make the decision or I'll go look for another pasture". Some girls will get intimidated and jump into the relationship just like that. They might like that guy as well but couldn't be sure. If they're not confident about themselves and have a negative thoughts like they're not gonna meet another person they like, vice versa, they will tend to give in to their "threats". Giving time frame for things like that are pretty dumb and ridiculous. Girls are usually quite sensitive to things like that. I'm sure they will know if someone likes them, though occasionally confused. All you have to do is ask at an appropriate time. How then you'll consider appropriate? No idea, this one you figure it out yourself.

Next we will look into why guys tend to ask for a relationship so soon? You think they're abit gancheong when they ask you to be their gf when they barely know you? Ok, lemme explain how the guys in Zingapore think. Since its our national beauty to be Kiasu, they have to uphold that image as well. They're not sure if you're gonna be the one, so they wanna chop you first and slowly find out. They are afraid if they dont chop u first they might lose out to the others who are bold enough to pose that question. Alot of 'what ifs' are going thru their mind, and its those 'what ifs' that drove them to pose that 'ai kia steady mai' question when they merely know you for 2 weeks. So next time, if a guy pose that question to you when they only know you for awhile, dont get the impression they just wanna get you in bed asap. They just wanna chop you first so that no one else can be with you when they get to know you better. It sound selfish but all kiasu behaviors are selfish, isnt it? Anyway I'm only pointing out one single possibility out of many, the rest still have to depend on your luck. Time is definitely not a factor in courtship/relationship, but luck is.

Hiding. You deal with your depression by wearing a
mask. No one ever knows your depressed, so no
one can ever pity you. On the outside you're
calm and collected. Inside, your blood boils...
But that's ok, as long as everyone thinks
you're normal.


How do you deal with your depression?
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So how you guys handle your depression? Eat like a fucking pig or cry like a burst sewage pipe?

Have you eaten any mooncake today? Yesh baybeh~ Its mooncake festival today people~ Where are you going tonite to play lantern? Chinese garden eh? I use to love mooncake festival cos I get to play with candles woooohooo~ Kinky eh? Heh... I remember when I was in secondary school, me and some friends would go to one hill nearby and have a great time with some girls. We would light some candles and have some snacks while teasing the girls. Ahh...it was so fucking fun!! You know that kinda secretly admire thing during sec sch time and your friends would tease the two of you and things like that. Then we would play some fortune telling shit and come up with our standard fortune to make the girls believe it'd be best if you're with this particular person no matter how the deck looks like hahahaha...Fuck, I miss those time. Mooncake festival is no more than a nostalgic day now. We've all grown up and the girl you once like is now a mother. Best thing is those person you use to hang out with so much during sch time are mostly gone now. If growing up is a part of life, then losing childhood friends is a by-product. What it used to be with never be the same again, but the memories you have will always be the same. Hope you'll have a happy Mooncake Festival this year, no matter where or who you're with.....

Monday night, Tuesday morning. Its really boring these days, in IRC. I wonder what is everybody doing. There are long pauses every now and then. I think some are engaged in private conversation while the rest are busy surfing or not at their desk. Nothing much to surf these days. Its always the same few old favourites. So sianz...coming online is no longer as it used to be. Aimlessly wandering here and there. Talking to girls seems like a tedious task to me these days. Getting better, yet life seems to be getting more and more dull. I no longer know what I am talking or what I am writing. I feel so dead. Can someone or something spice up my life a little? Nah, its not a matter of someone or something, it me myself. Right, I'm talking to myself once again. Time check: 01:08 am. Time to lie down and get some rest. The only cure for being bored, is to feel more bored and then doze off.

Some personality test shit, which says I'm such a person...

Whats ur choice of a chocolate centre????

Pick one: 1) almond 2)coffee 3) strawberry 4) marshmellow 5) peppermint

I picked coffee, of cos.


As a coffee person, you're not one to be kept waiting or standing in line. You like everything at once, and why not? You are a deep thinker and like the buzz of discussion and debate. After all, this is why coffee and chocolate houses came into being. Your mind is like a parachute - it works best when open.

Excess: Living on a caffeine fix, nervous energy, prone to addictions. You can be impatient and throw tantrums when things don't go your way. You always look busy, but what are you achieving?

Cool. I love to debate~ I throw tantrums~ I am impatient~ I look busy and yet achieve nothing~ And how to think without opening your mind? Ridiculous. I'm sure I know myself better than to seek assurance elsewhere hehehe....But of cos, this is just a game to see how choon this so call personality test is. Right, same goes to horoscope stuffs. Its all a game to me....

Who's your inner rockstar?

If I were a month I would be: Cold cold November
If I were a day of the week I would be: Monday
If I were a time of day I would be: Midnite
If I were a planet I would be: Venus
If I were a sea animal I would be: Dolphin...I wanna enjoy sex.
If I were a direction I would be: Forward.
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: Bookshelf. I like to be left alone.
If I were a sin I would be: Sloth.
If I were a historical figure I would be: Sang Nila Utama. I will name this place Crapura.
If I were a liquid I would be: Coffee. I wanna be aromatic.
If I were a stone, I would be: Part of a meteoroid.
If I were a bird, I would be: Caodabird..who else?
If I were a tool, I would be: Screwdriver...literally.
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Daffodils.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Storm. Appetite for destruction.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: Saxophone...the name's so sexy.
If I were an animal, I would be: Hamster. Screw day and nite.
If I were a color, I would be: Red. I wanna be auspicious.
If I were an emotion, I would be: Emotionless. Staring into the blank kind.
If I were a vegetable, I would be: Lettuce. Best with thousand island sauce.
If I were a sound, I would be: Burp.
If I were an element, I would be: Hydrogen. I dont wanna be in any group. I'm a stand alone.
If I were a car, I would be: Volkswagon Beetle. Kewl car.
If I were a song, I would be: Creep. Simple yet meaningful.
If I were a book, I would be written by: I don't read.
If I were a food, I would be: Sambal Stingray.
If I were a place, I would be: Bermuda Triangle. Mess with me and I'll send you into another dimension.
If I were a material, I would be: Anything thats impossible to form. I hate to be shape.
If I were a taste, I would be: Sweet.
If I were a scent, I would be: Scent of the wild. Example: Forest.
If I were a word, I would be: Supernova. Grand death.
If I were an object, I would be: Bra. Hugging tits everytime someone wear me.
If I were a body part I would be: Teeth.
If I were a facial expression I would be: Expressionless.
If I were a subject in school I would be: Literature. I hate to be understood.
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Daria. Meanie.
If I were a shape I would be: Triangle.
If I were a number I would be: 0.

What would you be, if you were to take on those questions?

Just came back from jamming, alone, under my block, had 6 sticks of fag in 2 hours, threw away the remaining 4 cos I'm discourage from fagging, had a can of 100 plus and greentea, sang a few songs softly, talked to a few uncles, smsed a few person, walked a few miles, evapourated a few gallons of water, killed a few mosquitoes, hurt a few fingers, drained a few millions cells thinking what songs to jam.

Went to Fisherman Village last friday and had a few dishes with 2 friend of mine. Then we went down to Embargo to meet another 2 friend of mine. Not a really handicap friendly place, but still managed to have a glass of coke with lemon there. The music's not really slow nor its extremely fast, just nice for a relaxed night with some breeze. Lover's in love and the others run away. Nothing much other than that. The fags are starting to become tasteless, so is life. What's next? I wonder. Whatever's gonna come, will come somehow. Thinking where will I go after death. One of the stars perhaps. One that wouldn't stop glittering for perhaps the next 10 million years. Stars are those that are luminous, not the illuminated. But stars will someday goes into supernova as well, so nothing is really permanently in existence. Buddhist studies? Maybe. Nothing is permanent, why you wanna be so persistant? Bitches they come they go, so are bastards.

Everyone is striving hard to achieve something in life, just to lose it in years to come, and you've got no control over losing the things you once own. Why do you try to achieve it in the first place, right? Simple things in life that you wont fear of losing is ample. Try not to obtain something you'll fear to lose it someday cos you will lose it eventually. Accept whatever things that you're given to. Accept it with a grace and take things easy when its gone without a trace. You cant? Right, its not easy I admit. But what can you do when it leaves you? Nothing. Ranting and whinning help sooth your feelings abit, but dont dwell in it for too long. Move on. Life's too short to be too particular about winning and losing. Simplicity is the way of having a fulfilling 70-80 years. You came to the world with nothing and you leave this world empty handed as well.

Whenever people share their problems with you, almost 99% just wanna share with you their woes. Advices are given to show that you're paying attention to what they saying, don't expect them to heed it. Try not to make their problems into yours or you'll have a hard time. What most people want, is just a pair of listening ears, not a talking mouth. Most people doesnt know how to heed advices since its coming from all sorts of directions. Which one should they heed? Its a difficult question to answer or there's no answer at all. Passive thinking? You be the judge, you're the one running your life, not me or others. You bear the consequences for making the wrong moves, but sometimes it affect the others too. Not too worry, they choose to be affected. Everyone have a choice to take the blue or red pill. No one force the pill into their mouth. They pick up the pill with their own hands and place it into their own mouth. Life's a bitch, so why can't you be one too?

This is dedicated to all you guys reading my blog. Thanks for the many months support.

The song is getting pretty irritating hor? Ok ok..i disable it leow....anyway another thanks to ah wee for helping me put the songs up ehehehe....

Finally got the comment thing up again...looks fuck type but will do la...can comment can leow wahahhhhhahaha...so please do drop in a few lines...been quiet these days...hmm...i hate html by the way.

Had another weird dream last night. Hmm..come to think of it, its pretty scary. I was in a hospital waiting to get plastic surgery. This doctor(kinda looks like my shrink) was preparing his gear on the operating bed!!! Sheesh....all those knifes and needles and cotton buds!!!! Then they were discussing where to cut and things like that.....and then he shift all his gears and ask me to lie on the bed!! And then the next moment, I woke up to pee...and thats the end of my weird dream.