But I could've told you Vincent, this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.

Sometimes, shit really do happen in life. I wanna blog this down not to blame anybody, but to remind myself the kinda blunder I made handling a simple task. Let this passage serve as a reminder to do better next time. Heres how the story goes....

Was suppose to meet up with spome friends for dinner and coffee today. Elsa and Piggy wanted to go Giant so they head out first. Elsa promised to fry popiah for me cos she've always wanted to make me something. It was around 2pm then. Was suppose to go out with my si mei early noon too cos she wanted to eat the laksa near Ah Boy(the one selling motorcycle accessories) and then pick koka up later on. So I waited for si mei to call...waited and waited but no sound from her. Wanted to sms or call her and ask wats holding her up but I tot since we gonna meet koka at 6.45pm so no rush. Anyway I dont really like to rush people who is doing me a favour by getting me out. Usually if they forgotten about it I'll just smile and say "no worries".

I waited and waited till 4+ almost 5, thats when koka sms me and tell me she cant make it tonite. "Ok...", I said to myself, "since she cant make it and theres no sound from si mei and the sky's getting dark and Elsa's shopping with Piggy, then we might as well cancel the whole thing". I totally forgot about the popiah Elsa made fer me(sigh....) so I asked koka to sms Elsa(I dont have Elsa's number or Piggy's) and tell her the event is cancelled and I tot it'll be fine since Elsa's with Piggy. I totally forgot about the popiah(sigh....)! I just kept wondering wat went wrong and where is my si mei. I am so fucking passive about things that once something cock up I'll just let it be, which explained why I didnt give si mei a ring. My si mei came online afterward, telling me what happened and why she didnt come. Its perfectly fine if you can't make it but I'd be glad if you let me know earlier so I can make other arrangement. Anyway not entirely her fault cos even if she informed me earlier, I cant do much. It started pouring at 6pm. The rain is so fucking heavy that my room's wet. Not that the rain splashes thru the window, but it actually managed to seep thru the part where the condensing unit is installed. It rained all the way till 8+pm. I feel so bad after seeing piggy and she told me this...

[21:22] PiggyOink> anyoneeeee
[21:22] anyone> PiggyOinkkkkkkkkkk
[21:23] anyone> how was her working place?
[21:23] PiggyOink> how i noe?
[21:23] PiggyOink> both of u decided not to meet us wat
[21:23] anyone> oh
[21:23] anyone> tot u all went down to the work place
[21:24] PiggyOink> for wat
[21:24] PiggyOink> mainly is for both of u to meet
[21:24] PiggyOink> :p
[21:24] PiggyOink> we are only the keh leh feh
[21:24] PiggyOink> she sms us that she is not free n so u say cancel lor
[21:24] PiggyOink> so we sms her back.. ok
[21:24] anyone> ya
[21:24] PiggyOink> like tt lor
[21:24] anyone> becos
[21:24] anyone> shit happens
[21:25] PiggyOink> n elsa actually fry popiah for u
[21:25] anyone> many shit happened
[21:25] anyone> sigh..
[21:25] anyone> i so sad

I'm sincerely sorry to Elsa for not remembering the popiah she prepared for me and for Piggy who came all the way down to Yishun. I seriously feel like shit. I hate the situation I'm in when this kinda shit happen. It really is shit when you have to depend so much on others. Learn to be independant. I'll be independant. Anyway this is wat me and my si mei's conversation later on...

[20:54] aR_tOOt> si xiong~~~
[20:54] anyone> si mei~~~~~
[20:54] aR_tOOt> jiak ba ba liao aR..??
[20:54] anyone> erm
[20:55] anyone> dont have
[20:55] aR_tOOt> huh..??
[20:55] aR_tOOt> bo jiak dinner aR..??
[20:55] anyone> i tot tonite never at home jiak so i told mom i not gonna jiak at home
[20:55] aR_tOOt> aiyooo..
[20:55] anyone> so she cook something they like and i dont like
[20:55] anyone> so i mai jiak
[20:55] aR_tOOt> oh..
[20:55] aR_tOOt> wah..
[20:55] aR_tOOt> then like tat how..??
[20:56] aR_tOOt> goin to skip dinner..??
[20:56] anyone> later see got bread eat bread
[20:56] anyone> dont have dont eat lor
[20:56] aR_tOOt> oh..
[20:56] aR_tOOt> jiak maggie mee lor..
[20:56] anyone> later tio gan
[20:56] aR_tOOt> aiyooo..
[20:56] aR_tOOt> but u whole day no go out..
[20:56] anyone> say got cook mai eat go eat maggie me
[20:56] aR_tOOt> then mum never cook other thing for u jiak aR..??
[20:57] aR_tOOt> orr..okok
[20:57] anyone> got jiak lunch...the nasi padang
[20:57] aR_tOOt> then not hungry yet aR..??
[20:58] anyone> alrite
[20:58] anyone> not really
[20:59] aR_tOOt> oh..okok
[20:59] aR_tOOt> nvm..
[20:59] anyone> ya
[21:02] aR_tOOt> si xiong hungry tell me..
[21:02] aR_tOOt> i tabao for u..
[21:01] anyone> oh
[21:01] anyone> heh nevermind la
[21:01] anyone> one meal dont eat wont die

Things cock up then I also victim...but somehow I feel its my fault...this feeling is terrible....Elsa is pregnant yet she made fried popiah for me...yet I can totally forget about it~ Unforgivable~ This is one supposingly happy night turns fucking lousy...

Lame dialogue between me and my friend..

[13:25] anyone> u come yishun we go cold storage enjoy free aircon
[13:26] anyone> i'll bring my stools along
[13:26] anyone> then we sit inside cold storage have high tea
[13:26] helen`> haha
[13:26] helen`> u go with ya mum
[13:26] anyone> ......
[13:26] helen`> since ya mum staying in yishun
[13:26] anyone> ask me go with mum
[13:26] anyone> u steady
[13:27] helen`> why not
[13:27] helen`> she can do her grocery shopping as well
[13:27] anyone> pple wanna go with u yet u ask me go with mum
[13:27] helen`> i dun wan go yishun
[13:27] anyone> why dun want!
[13:27] anyone> why cannot compromise me!
[13:27] anyone> gimme 10 good reasons!
[13:28] helen`> dun wan means dun wan lor
[13:28] anyone> ok
[13:28] helen`> when u wan to shit.. u read out 10 reasons why u wan to shit?
[13:29] anyone> ok
[13:29] anyone> 1st, becos my shit tong keng(meaning near the hole) and i dont wanna dirty my shorts so i go shit
[13:29] anyone> 2nd becos i feel like having a puff but i dont wanna waste time just puffing so i shit at the same time
[13:30] anyone> 3rd becos my meal is not clean and my system cannot handle it so i have to let it out
[13:30] helen`> okok
[13:30] helen`> spare me tat
[13:30] anyone> 4th, i wanna snooze abit but dont wanna waste time snoozing so i shit too
[13:30] helen`> by the 6th reasons.. ya had shitted on ya pants
[13:30] anyone> 5th, becos its my hobby
[13:30] anyone> ok u named the 6th, i shit my pants and i dont like my ass feeling soapy soapy so i go to toilet and continue shitting the second half
[13:30] helen`> bo liao
[13:31] anyone> 7th, becos my friend jio me along to shit so we can gossip about gals
[13:31] anyone> 8th, becos if dont shit then toilet wont be dirty then no need uncle to clean toilet and uncle will be retrenched so i am helping singapore's economy to keep uncle employed
[13:32] anyone> 9th, if dont shit then toiletpaper who buy? no pple buy then economy will go down and inflation will make our $$ worthless
[13:33] anyone> 10th if dont shit will cause constipation and then need to go hospital and have ur anus poked by chopstick and that hurts so need to shit to avoid that
[13:33] helen`> cheers
[13:33] helen`> u can paste in the main
[13:33] helen`> or on ya blog
[13:34] anyone> ok
[13:37] helen`> putting it in ya blog?
[13:43] anyone> ya

Quite obvious that I'm bored..fucking friday afternoon...maybe I should go take a nap...

Did a test and I can't resist posting it up my blog because its so well written hahahahaha....of cos it said all the fucking good things about me hahahaha....so single girls out there, please send in your applications if you think you fit my bill(notice its YOU fit MY bill and not I fit YOURS). I know I am cocky, SO?????????

You have confidence in your ability to get things done. You are a leader among friends, and a good one too. You are responsible and like to challenge yourself by taking up difficult tasks - and you usually succeed. You're a socialite. You go out to party frequently and hang around with lots of people. You're very enthusiastic, ambitious and love challenges. You love the good life. You live extravagantly and like everything around you to be beautifully crafted. You are optimistic, have an excellent sense of humor and enjoy having your friends around you. You are vigorous yet gentle. You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings. You like to socialize and are popular among your peers. You are soft-minded. You find it's too hard to say "No" to others, especially when you are pushed. Quite often, you are taken advantage of because of your soft-minded nature.

Too hard to resist not posting rite? Hahahaha....wat the fuck...I'm so vain...not to mention hao lian...hehehehe...

I figure out I've got nothing better to do on this warm day so I thought, "heck, why not I blog?" and so here I am. The frigging weather is so bloody warm and I only get to sleep 8 this morning. I woke up 12 and realise no one's around so I took a quick puff and log on to the internet. Last nite was claypot night as all the matches I bet went down the drain. Lucky thing is I won mahjong hahahahaha....its a fun game when your tiles are ok. Been losing all the while but things have finally change. Hooray! Fuck...I need some sleep now but theres nowhere fer me to sleep. Somehow I feel my family is pretty anti-social other than me and my sis. The rest seldom mix around with people and would hide at home watching tv or lying in the bed do nothing almost all weekends. For fuck's sake, go out and enjoy the frigging sun lar....ok I'm kinda cranky now so I better stop. Before I go I did this kinda dumb test from Quizilla...fucking piece of shit...like as if they know what kinda person I am....


You're bubblegum!!! You love to have a good time,
and enjoy being around others who feel the same
way. You tend to be the life of the party, and
people like to be around you as much as they
can.


Which kind of candy are you?
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It was a boring friday though I've watched a nice movie with 2 blokes hahahahhaa...funny movie, though its kind of a long wait before the movie started screening. Fridays are starting to get boring once again but funny how, this time I'm not really frustrated about having to stay at home. Its more like "ok lor...no where go then stay at home suck thumb lor" kinda thing. I think I've finally learnt how to control my emotions hahaahahaha...ok, not really, but the weather is too warm to actually enjoy going out. Its so frigging warm that I rather hide inside my room to enjoy my lovely airconditioner. Kudos to that fucker who invented such a sweet machine, though it doesnt really make a difference to buggers living in Russia since they feel cold all year round. Wonder if they ever perspire? Maybe they do, but their perspiration are in solid form most likely. Even now I'm fucking warm god damnit...when is this heatwave gonna end? Wah imagine now I'm working in some construction site with Ah Du...I sure smashed his face if he were to ask me go canteen da bao drinks fer him. Ok, I'm imagining things...I better go imagine who is gonna win matches tonite and the scoreline..bye you fuckers...stop making me feel so agitated....

You're a Harp!


What Type of Alcoholic Beverage Are You?
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Howdy folks! What can we talk about today? Its pretty boring to be stuck at home for 3 fucking days. Yeah, long weekend indeed....its pretty sick to be going to the same place day in day for months. Really miss those times hanging out with the rest, playing chor dai dee at sembawang park, east coast park, even HDB's void deck. Actually its not that I can't go further places other than Yishun or Sembawang, but I'm just sick of going different places doing the same thing over and over again. The urge to smoke has reached another new low. Now I think going out to get a few fags is a total waste of time. As much as I wanna go out get some fresh air, it irks me to just sit around and sip my coffee till its cold. Not that I don't enjoy the company of some, but the topic just doesnt seems to go further nor deeper. I love to get into deep thoughts by myself, thinking why things turn out to what it is now. I used to be a "theres no reason to everything cos things just happen to be like this" person but now I'm more like a "most things have a reason to why it is like this, and when theres no obvious reason, you use fate as a reason" person. Is there any reason why some people hate you or love you? Yes. You made them love and hate you because you did something they disgust or adore. They use it as a reason to hate or love you.

Question: Why I love you.
Answer: I love you because, I wanna love you.
Question: Whats the reason the makes you love me?
Answer: Because I wanna.

P/S: Replace the word "love" with "hate" when its applicable.

Life could be so much simple if you'd only look at it in a much simple angle. People love to give complicated answers to simple question because they wanna make themselves look sophisticated. Little do they know, the more sophisticated your answer is, the more shallow people look at you. You don't have to go round and round to tell people why are you behaving this way. Why am I writing this? Because I wanna write. But why this? Because I feel like it. Its pretty fun to be asking yourself questions and answering them yourself. This is the kinda simple stuffs I do everyday when I'm feeling bored. I think of how to answer people in the most cocky way so they wouldn't come bother you all the time with dumb questions. So what if you think I'm cocky? It doesn't matter, as long as the person saying that doesn't mean a thing. Fortunately, not many peoply out there matters to me so whatever they say doesn't matters to me. So do you think you matters to me? Pick out the hints and clues from our conversations, or you can't be bothered to find out cos I dont matter to you as well? Hehe.......

Its another brilliant work from ALICE~ I add in the dialogue to spice up the pic abit...hope you guys like it~

Seen this Gatsby commercial on TV before? Three dudes were singing this "If you're happy and you know you clap your hair~*clap clap*" song while clapping their hair now and then. Alice was having lotsa fun playing with her newly acquired Photoshop and she did some photo modification fer all of us. Below is one of her creations....



THANK YOU ALICE FOR MAKING ME LOOK LIKE A FREAK~!! THANK YOU SO MUCH~!!!

Was talking to this friend in IRC just now and she showed me the things she wrote about herself when she've got nothing to do,

1) GOD gave me half a beautiful heart so i have the experience to find the other half;
2) He gave me freckles so i'll learn not to be a vainpot and look pass appearances;
3) He gave me food allergies and intolerances so i'll learn to eat right and not to be picky with food and eat more greens and fruits;
4) He gave me sensitive skin so i'll learn to take care of my skin and not to take em for granted;
5) He gave me weak stomach so i'll watch what i eat and not stuff everything down my throat;
6) He gave me dimples so i can flash them all the times and show em off to the whole world;
7) He gave me a bit more fats so i learn to eat properly and accept its existence..and learn to live with it

I dunno about you guys but I think to have written something like this is very encouraging. I've been always telling people to feel good about themselves and stop complaining things about themselves. They are constantly saying they are too fat, too skinny, too ugly, too short, too tall, too much pimples, too little hair, too much this and too much that. Everyone is unique in their own way. I used to be someone who has so little confident. I never felt good about myself, and were constantly comparing myself with others to make myself feel more inferior. Its fuck to think that way. And believe or not, the more confident you are with yourself, the more attractive you are. Nothing beats feeling confident. I dont have any idea on how to write my "feel good" passage now but I'm definitely feeling good with myself. Everybody should start feeling good about themselves and stop comparing with those better than you. Be glad that you're better than the less fortunate.