Sometimes, shit really do happen in life. I wanna blog this down not to blame anybody, but to remind myself the kinda blunder I made handling a simple task. Let this passage serve as a reminder to do better next time. Heres how the story goes....

Was suppose to meet up with spome friends for dinner and coffee today. Elsa and Piggy wanted to go Giant so they head out first. Elsa promised to fry popiah for me cos she've always wanted to make me something. It was around 2pm then. Was suppose to go out with my si mei early noon too cos she wanted to eat the laksa near Ah Boy(the one selling motorcycle accessories) and then pick koka up later on. So I waited for si mei to call...waited and waited but no sound from her. Wanted to sms or call her and ask wats holding her up but I tot since we gonna meet koka at 6.45pm so no rush. Anyway I dont really like to rush people who is doing me a favour by getting me out. Usually if they forgotten about it I'll just smile and say "no worries".

I waited and waited till 4+ almost 5, thats when koka sms me and tell me she cant make it tonite. "Ok...", I said to myself, "since she cant make it and theres no sound from si mei and the sky's getting dark and Elsa's shopping with Piggy, then we might as well cancel the whole thing". I totally forgot about the popiah Elsa made fer me(sigh....) so I asked koka to sms Elsa(I dont have Elsa's number or Piggy's) and tell her the event is cancelled and I tot it'll be fine since Elsa's with Piggy. I totally forgot about the popiah(sigh....)! I just kept wondering wat went wrong and where is my si mei. I am so fucking passive about things that once something cock up I'll just let it be, which explained why I didnt give si mei a ring. My si mei came online afterward, telling me what happened and why she didnt come. Its perfectly fine if you can't make it but I'd be glad if you let me know earlier so I can make other arrangement. Anyway not entirely her fault cos even if she informed me earlier, I cant do much. It started pouring at 6pm. The rain is so fucking heavy that my room's wet. Not that the rain splashes thru the window, but it actually managed to seep thru the part where the condensing unit is installed. It rained all the way till 8+pm. I feel so bad after seeing piggy and she told me this...

[21:22] PiggyOink> anyoneeeee
[21:22] anyone> PiggyOinkkkkkkkkkk
[21:23] anyone> how was her working place?
[21:23] PiggyOink> how i noe?
[21:23] PiggyOink> both of u decided not to meet us wat
[21:23] anyone> oh
[21:23] anyone> tot u all went down to the work place
[21:24] PiggyOink> for wat
[21:24] PiggyOink> mainly is for both of u to meet
[21:24] PiggyOink> :p
[21:24] PiggyOink> we are only the keh leh feh
[21:24] PiggyOink> she sms us that she is not free n so u say cancel lor
[21:24] PiggyOink> so we sms her back.. ok
[21:24] anyone> ya
[21:24] PiggyOink> like tt lor
[21:24] anyone> becos
[21:24] anyone> shit happens
[21:25] PiggyOink> n elsa actually fry popiah for u
[21:25] anyone> many shit happened
[21:25] anyone> sigh..
[21:25] anyone> i so sad

I'm sincerely sorry to Elsa for not remembering the popiah she prepared for me and for Piggy who came all the way down to Yishun. I seriously feel like shit. I hate the situation I'm in when this kinda shit happen. It really is shit when you have to depend so much on others. Learn to be independant. I'll be independant. Anyway this is wat me and my si mei's conversation later on...

[20:54] aR_tOOt> si xiong~~~
[20:54] anyone> si mei~~~~~
[20:54] aR_tOOt> jiak ba ba liao aR..??
[20:54] anyone> erm
[20:55] anyone> dont have
[20:55] aR_tOOt> huh..??
[20:55] aR_tOOt> bo jiak dinner aR..??
[20:55] anyone> i tot tonite never at home jiak so i told mom i not gonna jiak at home
[20:55] aR_tOOt> aiyooo..
[20:55] anyone> so she cook something they like and i dont like
[20:55] anyone> so i mai jiak
[20:55] aR_tOOt> oh..
[20:55] aR_tOOt> wah..
[20:55] aR_tOOt> then like tat how..??
[20:56] aR_tOOt> goin to skip dinner..??
[20:56] anyone> later see got bread eat bread
[20:56] anyone> dont have dont eat lor
[20:56] aR_tOOt> oh..
[20:56] aR_tOOt> jiak maggie mee lor..
[20:56] anyone> later tio gan
[20:56] aR_tOOt> aiyooo..
[20:56] aR_tOOt> but u whole day no go out..
[20:56] anyone> say got cook mai eat go eat maggie me
[20:56] aR_tOOt> then mum never cook other thing for u jiak aR..??
[20:57] aR_tOOt> orr..okok
[20:57] anyone> got jiak lunch...the nasi padang
[20:57] aR_tOOt> then not hungry yet aR..??
[20:58] anyone> alrite
[20:58] anyone> not really
[20:59] aR_tOOt> oh..okok
[20:59] aR_tOOt> nvm..
[20:59] anyone> ya
[21:02] aR_tOOt> si xiong hungry tell me..
[21:02] aR_tOOt> i tabao for u..
[21:01] anyone> oh
[21:01] anyone> heh nevermind la
[21:01] anyone> one meal dont eat wont die

Things cock up then I also victim...but somehow I feel its my fault...this feeling is terrible....Elsa is pregnant yet she made fried popiah for me...yet I can totally forget about it~ Unforgivable~ This is one supposingly happy night turns fucking lousy...