My mom's watching the wat connection...that tcs8 9pm show...seems so fake the way things happen. Everything was screwed up initially, and before ya know, everything is so wonderful again. Is this wats happening around us? Doubt so. Anyway soap operas are all made the same way as this one, thats why my mom love it so much. She would scold and scold when everything goes wrong and smile and smile when everything is working out fine. Sometimes she would get so agitated by the show till i got scoldings fer saying i side the bad guy. Hahaha.... Anyway this is one bad bad yr fer me and my family. Everything is just not going rite. Got ticked off by my brother for not being responsible for the things i do. I know i disappoint pple. I know i didnt deliver wat i promise. I know i'm shreking responsiblities. Sometimes i just wish i'm an orphan. I got no one to depend on and no one to disappoint. I've only got me and me alone. If i dont depend on anyone but myself, i dont think i'll disappoint anybody other than myself. But its easier said than done. Just dont like to disappoint pple. Try not to but i cant stop myself from doing the stupid things i do. Oh well, i think i've really take my family fer granted. Didnt realise that until all the shit happened recently. Its like....its always friend this friend that. Why are my friend's problems becoming my family problems? OH BECOS I AM FUCKED THATS WHY! Yeah...this accident taught me who will be by my side when something dreadful happens to me. Not your best friend, not your galfriend, but those who u call family. You might not realise it now, but i bet u'll realise it someday....So if ya can, show more concern to ya family. They r the ones who wont turn their back against ya...well, most of them. Hope none of u belongs to the minority.....

Its been a while i blog in the morning. Kewl weather now....raining dinosaur cats and dinosaur dogs. Suppose to be a nice weather to continue sleeping but my build-in alarm clock rings the moment my mom steps out of the house. Yeah baybeh~~ Its time to fag! I'd better enjoy moments like these before i find myself lying motionlessly on some freaky hosp bed with some miserable blanket. Sheesh...it sux to find urself bound to ur bed only. Actually i dont like friends to come visit me in the hosp. Its demoralising when u cant walk along side with them and all they could say to u is to rest more. Obviously i cant do anything else but to "rest more" becos the only place i can go is well, the bed, the place where u get ur rest from. Dohz. Just cant stand these norms anymore. Though i appreciate pple coming down to pay me a visit, i do. But please spare me from these norms. Tok abt something else lar. Tok abt wat we use to tok in coffeeshops, pool centres, makan session, etc etc. Ahh...this is fooking depressing man....


Had a great day on sat becos i had both my breakfast and dinner outside. Had kway zup feast in the morning and mee goreng cum flied lice feast at fisherman village in the nite. Great! Its one of those "oh i'm so fully booked today" thingie. It just pass like that, before ya know. Its days like these that i wont have problem falling asleep in the nite. Wonder when will i do this again...near future perhaps? Beats me....Friend coming down all the way from Klang(a town in msia) to Sg just to bring me out. Touched. Actually its not how far or how busy are u yet u find time to bring me out that make me feel touched. Its the thought that count, seriously. Pple who stay near me come visit me, i appreciate it. Pple who stay darn far from me come visit me, i appreciate it too. I dunno the reason for them to come find me. Maybe they like toking to me? Maybe i can make pple luff? Maybe this maybe that...i dunno. But its the tots that counts. Friend whom i use to see so seldom in the past, is coming down to mah place and pushing me here and there almost everyweek. Friend whom i use to see everyweek in the past, is becoming a total stranger to me. I dunno izzit me or him. He seems to be some kinda gf of mine, who will distance away from ya once u stop going out with him and do crazy things together. Well, maybe not crazy things. Just stop spending time going out together cos its such a hassle to bring me out. Maybe its his laziness. I wont know and i think i dont wanna know. Anyway its his life to choose wat he want and dont wanna do. But this kinda gimme a new defination to friends. Pple whom u see almost everyday is not neccessarily ur best friends. Pple who find u occassionally doesnt mean they dont give a damn abt u. But sad thing is, u wont be able to tell this until something dreadful happens to u. Sometime life's just isnt fair. Or should i say life was never fair at all. So who do you think is ur good friend? Think again....

Actually i'm still considering to do the op or not. Its like another 2 more mths on the bed and theres no guarantee success or wat. Some ask me to wait and see wat happen, while others ask me to go ahead with the op. Myself? Actually, i just have to endure the boredom at home since i'm still getting paid (compensation for loss of income). Isnt this the dream of some pple? Of cos, u have to give certain things up for this kinda benefit, which in my case is the ability to walk. I think i'm getting lazy. I dont mind sitting at home all day and irc my life away....whahaahhahha....ya ya...i know...thats kinda fooked up life. Anyway i think i wont be able to recover for chinese new yr, with or without doing the op. Sux man....having to stay home all day during chinese new yr. But wat to do? Loon lor...boh bianz. Friday i'm going hospital for the neuro test or something like that. I kept feeling this numbness on my right hand fingers and the doc suspect there might be some nerves being damaged. So i'm requested to do a neuro test on mah right hand.....and the shoulder keep aching....fook man....just one crash and my whole body's falling apart. I wonder how those moto GP racer survive to race again after so many crashes. Just mah luck....i still enjoy watching other pple ride though. Can still feel the kinda satisfaction i had in the past. The feeling is soooo shiok, so carefree....ahh....I dunno its a good thing to not rem a thang abt the accident or not. Of cos, forgetting trauma experience is good. But if ya dont feel scared at all, the tendency of u trying to do it again next time is extremely high. I think i might still ride again....but not in near future. I'll try my best not to though, but it seems tat i always succumb to temptations...whahahaha.....somebody stop me~! hurhur....

Just as wat i expected. No bone growth yet again. Tis the freaking 5th time i've seen that doc of mine and tis the fooking 5th time he's telling me that there is no developement for my thigh bone. Guess i'll have to go for another op, which they will cut me up once again. Gonna remove part of my hip bone to patch my thigh bone up. Wonder why they didnt do this during the first op. Maybe they were hoping that my repair workshop inside will do a fooking good job in repairing mah thigh. But those bunch of fookers inside are lazy bumps. Been almost 6 months and still they've got no clue on how to patch the fooking bone up. Well, i guess its "oh-its-so-fooking-boring" all over again. Lie on the bed 24/7, do the stupid physiotherapy, having trainee nurses from NYP to clean mah wounds up, saying crap to friends which i got no idea wat the fook i said, etc etc. Anyway, dont think will do the op that soon. The doc gimme 1 mth time to consider his suggestion. Will give him the answer on 24th of Sept when i pay him yet another fooked up visit. So dont be surprise if u dont see my blog being update fer a mth or so. Most likely i'll be on the bed admiring how pretty the ceiling is being painted and how "pretty" those indonesian nurses are...

Its been quite awhile since i blog....erm...2 days? Hmm...not that long after all....Yesterday i had my first movie in like 7 mths, and again i was like the center of attention. First, the elevator is not working and i had to take the escalator on my wheelchair. The angle was so steep that i need to use my left leg to tahan abit so i wont roll down the escalator like some Jacky Chan movie stunts. Then going into the cinema need to use that mini elevator again. Kaoz...then we can only take the first row cos its steps, steps and more steps!! After the show, its the same old shit all over again....whaahahaha....my friend had to tahan me from behind when we r taking the escalator down...haiz....if the elevator is out of service for so long, they can just jollywell remove it and name it "Yishun Handicap Unfriendly Ten". Anyway thats my latest expedition and i think i'll do it again to catch "Lilo and Stitch"....hahaha...i like cartoons, but not those wat beauty and the beast or any of those with alot of the male courting female, they sing, male was forced by father to marry another gal, they sing, male runaway from home and found himself stop by the female's parents, they sing. finally, male and female got together, they fucking sing again!!! Its singing and singing and singing!!!! Its BOLLYWOOD cartoon style..minus the running around coconut trees and fighting with dumb dark aholes. I think i need to plan for this show man....to find those cinema which i can go in easily on a wheelchair, dont have to sit in the front row ONLY and empty with busybodies who will look at me like i'm Stitch..wahahhaa....plan baybee plannnnnn~~~

Some pple just doesnt seems to grow up no matter how old they get. Was having late nite coffee with my friend down at amk s11 last night when i learnt abt my friend's misfortune. Haha...ok, maybe misfortune is abit strong in this situation. Lets just call it....shit of the month? Hahaha....Ok it goes like this. My friend, p, was on this gal who happen to be some channel's hot babe....just becos she is somewat better than the rest in appearance. So this fellar, A-hole, go telling this babe somethings said about her by p which wasnt true. So there she goes, having to know A-hole longer, believe him, and come telling my friend how disappointed she is with him. Then another friend of mine, t, oso got into some kinda trouble with this A-hole. This A-hole gf, i dunno wats her name, was crazy over t and kept sending him nonsensical sms like i miss u lar, i wanna see u kinda things. Then one day, this A-hole found out abt it and start questioning t! He claims that t is the one who go seducing his gf. Come on lar, the gf isnt Fiona Xie lookalike or wat, she's not even comparable to Xiang Yun the old goose. Who the hell would wanna seduce her? This is crazy man...that A-hole's just too confident abt his gf's looks..must be lar...if not he wont think pple would wanna seduce her in the first place. And the most absurb thing is, he's already 30! Ridiculous rite? Still ask 2 person down to confront my friend...fucking naive...he tot we r still primary school kids...dohz. Anyway t was pretty cool and wasnt really bother abt it. He even intro me his latest item in his inventory list. Hahaha....ok lar, he's not a bad fellar lar. Just pity those two for getting into this kinda shit. Its always good to stay low profile, but going after someone who keeps a high profile is just as bad as being high profile yourself. So kids, just for ur info, it doesnt pay for being a high profiler...as the saying goes, tree big attract wind~ hahaha...wat the hell am i toking.....dohz....

weeeeeeeee~~~ yest was quite a happening day for me....hurhur...just didnt expect them to wanna come and pay me a visit. We went down to burger king at yishun ten for some sort of small gathering. Actually they was planning to bring me go to ecp to jog and rollerblade but they r mad man! I dont even jog nor rollerblade when i can still use mah leg for walk, let alone now...hurhur. They were saying bring me down to ecp to see them jog and skate and maybe they can push me along while they blade and jog.. think its some kinda of joke or wat. Anyway turn them down and had burger at bk instead. Tok cock for like 3 hrs and then another friend came down to bring me to marina south for bbq steamboat...at first i tot its some sort of a big gathering, with the pple whom i use to cheong madamwong with. End up? Just 4 of us...wahahaha..But it was quite fun, having to tok abt the scandals my friend had....he was surprise how the hell i knew abt it...wahahaahaha....they do in the lift, they did a threesome in a cinema, they do this they do that....wahhahhahaa...erm....name shall not be disclose...but i guess some of u guys reading it might know who already...whahahaha...damn funny... anyway now he's a married man and i wish him and his wife all the best....and pls...no more scandals after u get married. You can have all kinds of shit u want before marriage, but do settle down when u already start a family....hallelujah...

arlow...am suppose to sleep already but suddenly tot of something funny during my army days. So here i go...whahahha.....ok ok, u see, during basic military training we need to label every fuck think we own, our company name lar, platoon number lar and bed number. Then the bigger items like our helmet must label down our initials. So there we are....like for me its WP TAN for Tan Wah Peng and YC LOI for Loi Yong Choon....then there is this campmate who's name is Ding Ming Yuan. So there he goes...happily labelling down MY DING on top of his helmet. We didnt really pay attention to it until the next day where all of us have to wear our brand new helmet to train in the jungle. The moment we fall in with our helmets on, everybody fall into luffters! Then our platoon sergeant saw wat we are luffing abt, and he make fun of him by saying, "Of cos we know its YOUR DING (thing) lar....u wearing it on ur head wat! Must u go round telling pple that the helmet is urs by writing MY DING on it??" Wahahaha....ok ok...just a joke lar....something which i think is funny lar, not really trying to mock his name or wat...hurhur....

Am i suppose to wish everybody "happy national day"? Oh, if thats the case i shall save the formality. I was playing Winning Eleven 6 on my PS2 before i heard roar of planes zooming across the sky just ard my area. Then suddenly i realise today is national day. Stop my game and came online to see if there's anyone out there celebrating national day in irc. I'd fuck them up if i see anybody wishing someone else happy national day. Instead i saw this sentence...."Today is Singapore's 37th National Day and after taking crap for 37 years, $ingaporeans will finally be asked to drink their own crap. 60,000 bottles of sewage water will be given to guests at the 2002 Parade. The sewage water taken from bathrooms and kitchens has been filtered, bottled and renamed "New" water". I guess singapore government is slowly losing their charisma, especially among the 20-30+. Wat they have left is the support of the older generation which i think, supported P*P becos they bring peace to the country when its having the most chaotic time. I salute LKY. Seriously. He's a great man i think, though he rule singapore with an iron fist, stamping out all the leftist with dictatorship. Tats why we r not having shit like wat other country is facing. But ever since he step down, the situation seems to be getting worse. Maybe it seems to get better but actually we r getting more and more practical. Every fuck thing in sg needs money, and not just money, ITS ALOT OF MONEY!! At first its GST, COE. Then came ERP, more expensive HDB and now they going to restrict the amount u get to use from ur CPF. This is stupid man....you cant even decide how to use ur own money cos your government thinks they can plan better than you. And this goes on and on...i think i shouldnt touch on too much on this anymore as i'm afraid i might get reprimanded by the police for typing wat i felt. Haiz...this is the end my friend...this is the end....

Vi did something to mah blog and now u get to see my wilson, my baby~ Erm, actually its not that complex to do but somehow i just cant find the effort to do it. Feels kinda sian to write all this html shit, feel like i'm back to the polytechnic time when i have to do a turbo pascal assignment on mah own. End up, i just rip the skeleton out from mah friend's assignment, change a few colours here and there and then call it "My work". I got an A for that....must be the lecturer like my colour sense alot. Anyway coming back to the present day, i still hate it as much as i hate it 10 yrs ago. Especially when something go wrong and u have to hunt down where the fuck it went wrong. And in the end its just becos u forgotten to put a closing bracket or a colon. Fuck type rite? Must it be so precise? Maybe its me again...i hate precision engineering. Life is hard enuff, yet pple wanna make it harder to be so calculative. Come on lar, a few () lesser or ; : lesser wont die rite? Dont understand....

Ya, was telling my friend i'm going for my next review on the 20th of Aug. But frankly speaking, after 4 medical reviews since the day i discharge, i think its a complete waste of time. Everytime i'll go there like 30 mins earlier becos my sis is kinda gan cheong tat we might miss the timing. Alrite, no big deal since i dont have problem getting out of the bed. So we will get the q number to take the x-ray first. It will take around 30-50 mins before its ur turn to go in. Then there u are, lie on the bed while the
"photographer" adjust his "camera". After he adjust properly, he will faster run and hide in the little room just behind the bed. Then its me down there, all alone. Then after like 10 secs he comes out from that room, adjust his "camera", and run to hide in the room again. This repeat for like 4-5 times before i can go out and wait for my x-rays. Then its another 10-20 mins wait. Then proceed to the place where all the doctors are seated in their cubicle, and i have to take the q number once again. Then its another 40 mins to 1 hr wait AGAIN before i get to see the doc. Then he will look at my x-rays and tell me "Hmm, i think its better u dont try to walk first. The bone doesnt seems to be joining yet." Then the normal stuffs, gimme mc and next appt date plus the kinda medication i suppose to collect. Pay money for the consultation and then proceed on to collect my medicine. Then WAIT AGAIN for like 20-30 mins before i get to collect my medications. Then i'm done. Then i'm allowed to go home. Then i'm allow to rest and relax. And wat did i gain in the end? Nothing, just more pills and more pills. I bet this review is gonna be the same like the previous 4. I dont care leow this time, gonna buy crutches no matter wat. I hate this chair....puiz....cant even pee in a normal toilet...

Been listening to this song call "Do The Evolution" by Pearl Jam repeatedly. This song is fucking kewl man!!!! I wonder how many of u have hear this one before but i tell u man, it adrenaline pumping shit! Especially the part when he sing "ITS EVOLUTION BAYBEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~"~!!! He's practically screaming!! Makes me feel like screaming as well! Sumtimes u just feel like screaming on top of ur lungs, u just cant explain why. Thats the kinda feeling i'm having right now....weird man....might be watching Austin Powers tomorrow..at yishun ten. Not sure yet, have to depend on mah friends too. Wanna try that wheelchair elevator shit. Wonder is there any unladen weight for it or not.....whahahahaaha....if cannot exceed 100kg i think i can fucking forget about it..heh....till then....

Hello eberybirdie~ Hows ur freaking day? Today is somewat a lazy day. Zzzz....feel really tired, dunno why. Ah yes, i was at east coast yest and wat a fun day i had! Of cos, i can only sit around and drink coffee. But its different! This time i was sitting at my friend's work place, some kinda rollerblade shop. The shop front is facing the sea (kewl~!), with 7-11 on its right and coffeebean on its left. Wat more can u ask for man~! Then gals in tank tops blading ard, and bikini gals walking past once awhile. Ahh...so relax though its kinda hot. Played chinese chess with my friend with fag on mah right hand and ultimate mocha on the left. Really relac day at the beach, which i dont get to do at all in the past but am doing it now. Feels like the beachboyz except for doing the stuffs beachboyz suppose to do. If only i got a shop near by some beaches, i would really make the effort to go to work everyday. Hahaha....really shiok man i tell u...nothing much to tok abt for the time being...later folks!

Was kinda lazy to write these days, or rather nothing much to whine about. Just wondering, how many pple are reading mah blog now and then? Can u guys just put anything down in the comments? Just wanna do a head count, nothing much. Yes vi, feels kinda weird when u r writing something and no one actually reads about it. Seems to me i can really whine...i whine every single day. Nothin i wrote in the past is inspiring or heart waming or just funny. Its just complains after complains, whines after whines. I think its kinda boring to read about complains everyday. I got things that are funny but i cant type it out la, not that i got nothing funny to share or wat. Its just that...its pretty mean la...though its really quite amusing. Just like the thing we joke about at coffeebean bishan today. I was telling my friends how my mom rem who they are by their "not-so-easy-to-rem" names. Like i got a friend who's hair is curly, so i'll tell my mom this guy is known as "kiew mor". She rem him becos his hair is really curly.
Then there is this guy whom his family runs a pork distributing business. Then i'll tell my mom that this guy is "buey der bar" one. She rem him becos u dont really get to know friends who sell pork. Then there is this guy who's known as jiao kia just becos he uses this nick 'dodo' when he was still in ngeeann poly. Nothing special abt his name but my mum find it amusing. Why would someone wanna name himself after his own tweety bird? She wonders. She rem him. Then i got a friend call Timothy but my mum cant really pronounce his name properly. So she uses something which she is more familiar with for replacement, which is "MRT". Hence i got a friend who's name after that thing that will never run out of petrol. Then another friend, whom we call "niao ci" becos he look like a mouse. My mom rem. I somehow have to think of some funny teochew term to make my mom rem my friends cos she is iliterate. Or she only know a few simple english words, like yes,no,hello,eat,sleep and of cos, the famous "MRT". I'm so lucky to have her as mom....i love u mom......:")

Oh ya, forgotten about this. While we were having our dinner, someone came and ask us where is Mos Burger. I was really tempted to say, "You gotta wait till Hari Raya before you can get some Mosque Burgers from of cos, The Mosque!". Which i didnt say la...u think i fucking dumb or wat? I'm literally lame but i'm not dumb. Get that into ur freaking minds....anyway here's an amusing conversation between me and my friend in irc later on...

anyone> eh
anyone> wat burger from mos burger is pork one ar?
anyone> dont have rite>?
crass`> dun haf i think
crass`> of cos la, they dun fucking sell pork in fast food outlets
crass`> it's all fucking halaa
crass`> it's all fucking halal
crass`> hur hur
crass`> fuck i feel ike luffing
crass`> but then...
anyone> wahahaahahaa
anyone> fuck i am luffing now
anyone> this is fucking amusing
crass`> ok ok get a grip
anyone> lemme post our conversation on there too
crass`> luckily it's not a malay who asked us THAT

Irc is a funny thing. Today you see this nick with another nick, some weeks later the same nick got together with another nick. I mean being an item lar, wat else? Its a funny thing cos u see, this gal went to this guy's place, uses his computer and changes his nick to hers. Its just like telling the whole world that, "Hey, i'm with this guy now, arent you glad for me?" kinda thing. I dont know the moral of the story, perhaps she wants to let her ex know that she can be with whoever she wants anytime, anyday. Anyway i dont see the point of letting pple know who u r with now. Its just so dumb and senseless. But hey, we are Singaporeans rite? Wat r the things we are incapable of doing? This really stinks man i tell ya, it stinks! Anyway i got nothing much to do with this gal. She can do wat she deem fit, its just my personal view on this issue.

Oh well, slept kinda early last nite, and got up the same time everyday. That's life. Regardless u r working or schooling or resting at home with a damaged leg, its still the same routine. When will a day come when u dont have to sleep at nite and dont have to wake up in the morning, or vice versa. It use to be my goal to sleep and wake up whenever i want to. But till this day, this goal is still nowhere near its goal post. I guess i'll still stick to this kinda routine till the day i wave goodbye to life, a sucky life. Read abt my friend's blog, having to go to work and endure all kinda shit there. Seems like everybody i know is fed up with something. K, if u r reading this, dont be so despair. Wat u r doing is a noble task. And it takes lotsa preseverance and understanding. For the kid's sake, dont give up on them. They need people like you. I know i might be just toking cock down here cos i will never know the kinda shit u are going thru. I wont understand how fed up u feel at times. If you think u had enuff, think abt how the kids feel. You have my support, mentally of cos.


Blog more later on...stay tune.

I was trying to arrange my accounts just now and i realise i'm not good enuff to do it. Its just too messy and i dont know any of the accounting terms used. Its just so messy. The accountant did a fuck type job for us and now we need to clear his shit. No one else to blame but myself. Was just too lazy to really look into it and now when we wind up the biz, we r left with a chunk of fuck type accounts. Dunno where to start from, its just bits and pieces lying around. I wonder the uncle selling chicken rice in the market have the same kinda accounts we have, since the nature of biz is more or less the same. Sometimes it doesnt pay when u try to do things in a "oh its so detail" way. Thats wat i'm facing now. I dunno that much abt accounts but with the small scale biz i'm running, i dont see the reason why we need such a detailed accounts. Anyway its wat my other partner request of cos he's studying in ACCA, and he think a detailed accounts is so much of a deal. So he get one of his friend, another grad student from ACCA, to do for us at a fee of $150 per mth. We are kinda lazy to do it ourselves so we tot, why not? End up the $150 we pay for every mth for 1 yr plus is as good as buying a luohan fish today and see it floating on top of the fish tank the next day. So now wat am i going to do with them? Get someone else to do it lor, i just cant la. I cant do something which i got 0 knowledge. I tot its as simple as watever money earn minus watever money spent, positive value means profit, negative value means loss etc etc. But that stupid accountant do it until its like Enron's account, so complicated! I've never see that many numbers in mah entire life, not even during the world cup season when i'm looking at the odds off singapore pool's website. I give up, i just give up. Trust me kids, unless you like numbers very much, dont ever take up any accounting courses. Its gonna blow your freaking mind.....