Everybody wants to rule the world~!! Yeah....thats right~! Every now and then you would come across people who are dying to have power, authority etc etc. Everybody wants to be on top of the world, everyone yearns to have total control of another. Well, what can I say? Humans just adore the feeling of being the Alpha male. Complicated stuffs, hard to understand. I don't know how the hell i got involve as well, maybe I've let down my guard. Oh well, its just a game a program a pastime. Nothing much in particular, just cannot fully understand the benefit you get from backstabbing. Heck, I guess its time to move on....

I wonder why the more you put effort into maintaining relationship, the more you're afraid of losing that person.You see, I kept thinking about that unconditioned love ever since my friend leewee told me about it. Ya and I personally feel that, the only unconditioned love I can come up with is motherly love. Its hard, very hard, when you kept giving and not asking for anything in return. Come on, face it, we are not saints. Ok you might say you never ask for any return in any sense but deep down inside you, there's this little desire slowly brewing. We shall call it Hope. This Hope to have reciprocate care and concern is growing each day. You don't get what you want today, you'll pin your Hope on tomorrow, and its growing. As days go by, this Hope grew in volume. Slowly you are sick of not getting the kinda response you are hoping to get. You became frustrated. You've long forgotten about that unconditioned love you were talking about sometimes back. You start to demand the kinda things you think you deserve to have. And when your demand's turned down, you accused the other party for not putting in effort to maintain the relationship. Little did you realise, he/she did not demand anything from you in the first place, its all about you. You made the decision to do this and that for the other half, never did he/she demand you to do this and that. So why are you demanding things now? Wheres your so call unconditioned love now? Ok, so you'll say its not totally your fault, since you're just trying to make things work. Fine, thats sweet of you for being so thoughtful and considerate. But please oh please, don't talk about giving unconditioned love anymore, cause there's nothing thats unconditioned in the first place. So you thought, since thats the case, why not you be the reciprocating party? Then when you try doing that, the other half will start to think you've changed. Then its hard for you to explain things since its not nice to say "its all because you didn't reciprocate to what I've done for you so I don't see the point of doing nice things for you anymore". Things are just gonna turn ugly if you would say that. Anyway thats not really the case. You think it would be better if you were to be the responsive one cause things will be more balance then. The equation would work out as something like this....

Equation A
You do things for him/her willingly - he/she never do things back for you = Grouchy you.

So if that result is not desirable, why not.....

Equation B
You wait for him/her to do something nice for you + You does something nice in return = Happy making out!

But there's an unknown element in Equation B that might backfire. Whats that unknown element? It is....you wont know when he/she's gonna do that nice thing for you hahahaahhahahahhahaha.....so if he/she's not gonna do anything nice for you and he/she's waiting for you to do something nice to him/her, its gonna render Equation B null and void. So it all boils down to whether you are game enough to take the risk, and to seriously think about whether this thing's gonna work out fine if you seems to be the only one throwing in efforts. But please bear that in mind, unconditioned love only flow in the same blood. Either that or you might find your partner to be The Pope or Mother Teresa....