20 December 2003

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| Topic: Anyone & Pignose - SG came in today. Will take pics on |
| Monday. Looks good sounds good play good. |
| SetBy: bErTbErTz Sat, Dec 20 2003 at 9:30pm |
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I'm an official SG Special owner....after 10 long years. Whether izzit Gibson's or Epiphone, it doesnt matter, as long as its not Samick cos it sounds like a pahlia brand. Yap, if you see this, kindly explain wats pahlia is to everybody in the comment column. Thanks.

Was suppose to go Jalan Besar S11 for that usual soccer gathering every Saturday or Sunday. Didnt make it though because it wouldn't stop raining ever since 1430hrs this afternoon. Well, it did get smaller but I guess we miss our chance when theres one due to many many unforseen circumstances. I dunno what was I waiting. Maybe waiting for Christmas to come but hey! Wadaya know? Christmas is just 5 days away. It doesnt mean much to except that I can get the fuck out of the house. Why I hate staying indoor so much? Maybe its because I cant get to fag but most importantly, its because I have this sickness call CLAUSTROPHOBIA and its not just a simple one. This claustrophobic shit only applies to this little house of mine sitting in Yishun. Everyone boss around as if they're Sauron. Actually I'm quite ok if i'm being left alone doing my own things at home. I hate being surrounded with watchful eyes. Imagine playing your computer with someone behind ya. Cant breathe argh cant breathe...I need to be alone. Alone in my own little space. Alone without any disturbance any movements. I can shut myself out of this world just as long I've got my headphone on but I cant stop seeing unwanted scene though I can shut my eyes and just go to bed. But I'm not sleepy. You know when you're lying down and not sleeping, your mind become so active, you tends to think of things. Alot of weird thinking comes into your mind. You ponder over things that doesnt have a solution. Then you feel so restless. You wanna get up and scream but you wonder why you wanna do that for. Then you just dunno what you wanna do. You wanna get up but you cant. Day after day, week after week, the same old shit is repeating. Is this a dream or is this a reality? This is the question thats constantly popping up in your mind. No solution. Nothing can be done. You just continue living life as it is. You're in the Matrix and you cant escape from it cos you're trapped inside it. No Neo or Morpheus to save you. You're doom.

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